Santa Teresa
June 12, 12:00 am
Reece
12:33 am
Pwede ba 'ko magkwento
12:35 am
Have you ever wanted something
But at the same time felt bad because of it
12:36 am
It's weird
I hate the work we do
But at the same time
I get a lot of validation from it
12:37 am
There are older business people who find me impressive
And every time they tell me I'm smart and capable at such a young age
I like the feeling
12:40 am
When my mom's in the room when they tell me those things, she looks at me in a way that says "See? This is why."
It makes me angry
12:43 am
Does that mean she was right all along
Even my sister told me mom may be strict
But she raises us to be excellent
12:45 am
I feel like I'm juggling contradictions at every turn
I hate my mom but I can't bear to disappoint her
I hate working but I look for praises
12:50 am
I guess
Sa'yo lang ako hindi nalilito
I've always liked you.
12:52 am
I think I'm good at liking you at a distance.
Not so much now...
Not when I know you like me back
Because I can't do what I want with that love
12:54 am
I don't mean to scare you
But thinking about a future with you gives me a lot of comfort
When we're older, I know you'd want to keep living away from the city
Maybe in your lola's farm
And I'll be there with you
12:56 am
I know you like kids
So we'll have children
Or just one. It depends
12:57 am
We can live together.
And I wouldn't have to be Olivia Charmagne
I could just be Oli
Your Oli
12:59 am
I want all of those yet I don't know if I can give this up
The whole thing with my parents and the companies they have
Because I hate it but I like it at the same time
1:20 am
Anyway, we're young
I don't really know what'll happen 10 years from now
But I know I'll still love you.
At least that I'm sure of
1:22 am
Please wait for me Reece
When I figure things out
I hope we can be together
I know it's a big thing to ask for
But I'm hoping I'm worth it
3:33 am
I love you.
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