ALESSANDRO|18+

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AVYANNA

Ugh ...my head is banging wildly like someone is hitting it with  a hammer.  I am still trying to adjust to the light as I struggle to get up to lean on the headboard . I force myself to look around the mess I created yesterday  but everything was in its place  and I don't even remember tucking myself  in the duvet, meaning he was here. What would I expect  from him . It's his penthouse he can do whatever he wants. I razz with that thought. 

My eyes are stuck on the night stand when I see three papers on it. I pick up the first paper and unfold it. He used to write me those fake promises on paper. He never stops.

Ruby chocolate it's on the island in case you are craving chocolate.  I bought somethings for your hangover. Sorry for pushing you over the  edge .

I scoff at his words as I fold the first paper.  I put it back on the night stand. I believe he is Watching me right now.  Some shit I have gotten used to. I pick up the second  paper.

7pm sharp , be ready I will pick you up . There is an event and I need a date. No saying no I am your fucking boss so respect me. The dress is on the dinning table you never use.

I ain't going anywhere with him. Being around him yesterday was enough for bad memories. For someone who apologized on the other paper doesn't know how to keep his words. I fold it  and I open the last paper . Okay this is something..

I ain't asking for forgiveness  for what I did in the past  but wanna fix it. I wanna be a better man. And if my betterness means forcing you. I will. I am sorry that I cheated on you when you had hopes for us. I broke you but I have come to fix this. ANYWAYS.  I have decided on what I want for  the damages  you made on my  cars. So come  with me to the event and I will let you know .

He is just getting my last fucking  nerve. Does he have to ruin my morning? I gulp down the bloody Mary that was on the night stand   before getting up.

I slide into my indoor slippers and go to the dinning table . I see a box here. I walk towards  it forcing me to take a few deep breathes before opening it. I did not even check what time it was. I look at the dress in the box it was a black dress with  some straps on the back . It was long  but seemed to be tight. It's gorgeous  and must have cost a fortune. It is a plain dress but screams the word "money" .

"Here you go" he smiles  at me giving me a small box as he seats next to me. I receive it."You know I don't like gifts Alessandro " I tell him as I open the box exposing  a necklace." I don't have  enough money but I will try my best to spoil you" he smiles at me before kissing my cheek."Wanna grow old together?" I ask him  , everytime I talk about our future  it's like his mind is somewhere else. He nodes  his head," of course I do, who wouldn't want to be your life partner? ".

"Lies! I wish you were fucking dead" I shouted not caring if he was watching  me. All over sudden my heart starts feeling heavy,tears rolling  down my cheeks forcing me to fall on the chair next to me. "You told me so many lies,so many fake promises. What gives you the right to control me. With what you did you should not be breathing.  Was it wrong to love you?" I ask myself as I wipe my tears holding the dress before  me.

"Hey why are you crying? " He runs over to me throwing his bad on the  ground  and embracing me. "You were kissing  her, you were kissing the popular  girl in school" he went silent for a moment.  "Umh no it was a dare the dudes told me to do, you know how the dudes are with these games. They could have thought I'm a pussy.  It meant nothing  I promise".  He lied. " I don't like you crying  it breaks my heart."

Too blinded by love that  I believed  him without  thinking twice . If lightening  was to strike people on how many time people lied to you . He could have being just ashes. I don't even know the guts he has to show his face to me. Lord knows how hard it was to get over him. First love, first kiss ,first sex,first everything. 

I took the longest shower to ever exist in the books of showers. I wear my grey short and some t-shirt  I found gorgeous  though  it was too big for someone  who is a medium.

I lay down on bed. Finally I check the time on the phone its 2pm.  I don't even unlock my phone. I don't want to see his texts today. I not in for it. My eyes keep on looking  back on the notes . It's kind of hard to get rid of them  despite what he did. Is it that hard to walk away from your first love despite how much they hurt you.  When someone  cheats on you or stops making you their priority  means they found someone  better than you. You ain't good enough  for them . You know.  Everytime I think about him my mind feels like it's about to burst.

I have even lost the energy to watch anything  or do anything  so I just stare at the ceiling.  God knows for how long. My tummy starts misbehaving  so  I make my way to the kitchen to make myself  some  food . I just  made noodles. I heard one packet is too little  and two packets it's just too much . I have believed that now. Mahn I'm about to explode .

The time when I'm happy that I haven't thought  about him . It's when I think about him. Just cut my head already.  Ugh.
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