the banks family imagines

DONT LEAVE ME

| Leilani Banks |

"Lord please, you here me pleading" I spoke as I was in the car driving to the hospital. I was woken up at 7 this morning to the most devastating call I've ever had in my life.

My dad had a stroke and was in the hospital. I don't think I've ever been this scared in my whole entire life.

So here I am speeding to the hospital praying that god doesn't take him away from me, my mom, and most importantly my siblings. They're too young they still need him, I still need him.

| Moments Later |
I'm rushing through the hospital trying to find the ICU waiting room. There I see my mom, siblings, and uncles Von, Booka, and Muwop. All with tears in their eyes.

My uncles try to keep the tears to themselves but you can tell they're close to breaking free. "Where is he?" I question as soon as I'm in earshot.

"Lani he's in a room and he just got out of surgery." Mom told me as she got up and pulled me into a bone crushing hug.

"Surgery I thought you said he had a stroke?"

"We'll baby he did but when he fell his brain started bleeding and they had to perform a surgery to get it to stop." I could hear and feel my heart breaking.

"I want to see him right now." I say and she leads my to the double doors that leads back to the ICU patients.
"Can I get some privacy mommy"

She nods her head then walks out. I'm sitting there for a moment wondering what it is I'm supposed to say. I mean he's not gonna answer it'll be like talking to myself.

I take a hold of his hand and then I say "Hi daddy, it's me Lani." Followed by a sigh. I feel so stupid doing this like why am I talking to myself.

A nurse walks in I guess her nosy ass been listening bc she says to me that "he can hear you, he just can't respond. Then she walks out.

What in the white people just happened.

So I start talking again and instead of trying to find something positive to say I say what I'm actually feeling.

"I'm mad at you. How could you do this to me? You promised to never leave me by myself ever."

"You said it's only us, only the family."

(Y'all see what I did there lol 😂 anyways back to the story)

"I guess you lied to me."

"I mean do you even understand how I'm feeling right now. It's like my soul's bleeding. I can hear my heart screaming for you to wake up and come back to me."

"You were supposed to walk me down the isle when I married Horace."

(Yea y'all I changed that I'm all about nardo wick at this point in my life so polo is out the door. I just don't feel like going back and changing the shit)

"You were supposed to finally give that feature when I finally got big enough so people wouldn't say I only got it because you're my dad."

"You made all these promises to me and now you might not even be here anymore to follow through."

By this time I was in tears boo hoo ugly crying but I didn't care. I just want my dad to come back to me.

"I don't think I'll be able to take it if you die."

"I'll have to step up and be a better big sister, I'll be CEO of a company that I'm not ready to run yet, and last but certainly not least I'll have to deal with all of the enemies you and the rest of otf made."

"And yes they've been send disses my way but it'll be even worse because you won't be there to speak up for me anymore."

"And what about all of our traditions that are just you and me."

"Who am I gonna eat Cinnamon Toast Crunch with in the morning on my birthday."

"Who am I gonna bang pots together in their ears to wake them up."

"Who's gonna be there for a me to cry to when I feel overwhelmed with my music."

"There's all these things that I used to to do with you that I won't feel right doing with someone else."

"And no matter how old I got I was always daddies little girl"

I started to get really overwhelmed with emotions and thought that it would be best if I left. So I said the one thing I haven't told him since I started my lil rant. "I love you daddy."

With that I walked out of the room and the hospital without a word to anyone else. Tears streaming down my face.

I got in my car and I let out the loudest scream ever. I've been through a lot of heartbreaks in my life but nothing compares to this.

I drive home and as soon as I walk in I see Horace waiting by the door with his arms opened. I rush to them without hesitation and breakdown some more.

He doesn't say anything just rubs my back and holds me. Which is exactly what I need because I don't feel like hearing all the "it's gonna be ok's" and "everything will be fine's".

|Moments Later|
Me and Nardo are in my bed laying there with me still in his arms when he decides to speak.

"I gotchu foreva Lani, and I know I can't compare to your dad obviously but I'm hear for you wheneva." He says to me while looking my in my eyes.

"I love you Horace"

He pauses for a second and I know the reason why. We haven't said that to each other before but him being here for me and trying to help me through what I feel is the worst thing to ever happen to me I know that I love him with every piece of my heart.

"You don't have to say it back Horace but-"

He cuts me off. "I love you too Leilani Dior"

I knew he meant what he said because he used not only my first name but my middle one too.

We smile at each other and share a short but passionate kiss.

We stayed in that position the rest of the night and I fell asleep.

A/N~ Ok y'all so I'm thinking this is the longest one I've ever made but idk. Some of that stuff is based of what I'm going through with my dad I added some shit and left some shit out. Just for dramatic effects and that's the song I've been listening to whenever I think about him so I put on here. Anyways by for another 6 months nah I'm jp. I love y'all ❤️