✿°IT STARTED WITH ME°✿

°BUT°

(Jimin's pov)

How dare he, hurting me like this and acting like he is the victim, how can people be so heartless, how can they don't even think once about the person who loves them more than the others.

Why does he need to make it so hard to leave him, forget about him, why?

I can't control my love for him.

I can't control it, I loved him too much to leave him.

It was just a month ago when we're together, happy.

But he had to ruin everything, maybe it was all my fault to fall in love with him. When he asked me out for the first time, I should have said no but now thinking about that is all waste of time, I can't possibly bring back the old time.

And even if I could, I would live in those memories again.

The best memory of my life.

I never wanted Jungkook to be my past, I always wanted him to be my present.

But now looking into his eyes, his hands on my wrist, I couldn't control the pain I was holding inside me.

A tear made its way through my cheek as I started to shake my hands to get rid of his.

I was busy in freeing myself when he pushed me against a wall. He kissed me aggressively, it didn't feel right.
His hands started to roam around my body, sliding under my shirt, when I snapped out of my thoughts.

I raised me hand and slapped him back into his senses.

"Are you crazy"I said while looking straight into his eyes more like glaring, when his eyes were filled with guilt.

" I never expected you to assault me, Jungkook" I shouted, I knew that even if he would have fucked me in the daylight no one would have cared because his mother is the trusty of the school.

"This is all you want from me, Jungkook" I asked him, my voice was shaking.

He didn't bother to reply, so is it true?
This is all he wanted, he never actually wanted him.

He was lying all the time when we were together.

So, It was all lie.

(Jungkook's pov)

I can't loose him like that, no I am not gonna do this mistake, I wouldn't let him leave,he is mine and he will be mine.

Can't he just forget everything and be happy with me like we were? Why does he need to make a huge deal?

It was just a one mistake, and it can be forgiven? Right?

I couldn't control it, so I grabbed his wrist and pushed him against the wall.

I didn't know what to do next, I have already apologized but he won't listen.

But now looking at him in this position, I don't want to do anything but claim those lips.

Not wasting any time, I planted my lips on his, he was whimpering under my embrace so I bit his lips, ignoring his screams, I just focussed on the kiss.

Suddenly, I felt a harsh slap on my face, the side of my face was stinging with pain, it must have left handprints.

But then I realised what was I doing.

I didn't wanted to do this,

This wasn't supposed to be like that,

I just wanted to talk and clear things out but I just ruined it more,

I messed up again,

I looked at him,new tears forming in his eyes, how many times an I gonna hurt thi angel? I ask myself.

Should I just leave him? Will it be better for him?

But what about me? Will I ever be able to live without him?

God! I don't know what to do.

"Jimin, just trust me" I said.

"After this" he said and scowled at me.

"Jimin, whatever happened that night, it was my fault, I accept it but don't you think I deserve a chance, our love is much more than that" I said to him looking astonished.

"Jungkook, any love relationship is built with trust and now I don't have any trust in you, if the foundation is weak then the building is going to fall in future anyways, just like our relationship" he said,

"So, It is better if we move on and continue to live a life where we aren't meant to be" he said as he left the room.

No, this can't be happening, this is not supposed to be how I planned it to go, I thought to myself.

Finally, in a panic, I grabbed his hand and held them tight in my fist and they were stiff by now.

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Nikki~