I Hate Her +Don't

chapter 5 scare

You and Nate are arguing over something stupid. He gets up and walks out side. You hear his car start. You run up to your room locking yourself inside. You start having a relapse. You find the closest razor and and start cutting. Your arms thighs and wrist. You don't stop till you see blood on the floor. You stop and look at your body. You start crying harder. You quickly rap your arms and thighs to stop the bleeding. You hear a knock on your door. "W-who is it" you say through sobs. "It's me" you hear Nate says. You slowly open the door. You had already covered the blood and put pants and a sweater on. He hugs you. "I'm sorry" he says. "No I should be sorry I'm the one who started it" you say. "No you weren't it was me" you say. "Either way I just don't want to loose you" Nate says. You hug him. The only person who knows that your mental health is shit, is Colby. He knows how it feels and was always there for you when you would go into a relapse. You were always there for him when his life was shit. You notice and think that you and Colby need to talk because you haven't in a while. After about 2 hours you and Nate were sleeping in his room. The next day was the day you guys were leaving for the crescent hotel. You get up and go to the bathroom to get ready. You look at where the blood was and it was gone and the clothes that were covering in where gone you start panicking. You try to ignore it and get ready.

You do every to get ready. You go down stairs your passing Colby's room and you feels someone grab your hand and drag you in. You look and see Colby holding the shirt covered in blood. "Alora why didn't you come to me?" He asks. "I-it was just a quick little thing" you say playing with your sleeves. "Alora just please come to me when you feel that your gonna go into relapses please I'm here for you" Colby says. He pulls you into a hug and you hug him back. "I'm sorry I just" you say. "No it's ok but can I see how bad?" He asks. You nod and give him your arms. He slowly pulls up your sleeves and twitches at the sight. "Omg alora" he says gently gazing over them. "I know it's bad like really bad" you say. "I'm just glad your ok and you didn't pass out or yk" he says. You nod he hugs you and gives you a kiss on the top of the head. You and Colby have always done that. "Have you told Nate about your mental health?" Colby asks. "No I just don't want to scare him away" you say. "Alora I've known Nate as long as I've known you and he would never just drop someone especially you but only tell him when your ready don't do it because I told you to do it when you think your ready to tell him because that's a huge part in a relationship" Colby says. You nod. "Also I wanted to talk to you about something so after his trip were going to the UK Kat and stas were gonna go but stas made plans and kat doesn't want to go I've talked to Nate about it and he said he would go but the only thing is George is gonna be there with Wilbur and I know it was a while ago but it was rude so if you don't want to go than you don't have to" Colby says. "Um yeah I'll go" you say. "Thank you" he says. "Also when we get back from filming the crescent hotel we'll be back here for 2 days so you can pack more" Colby says. You nod. You and Colby start packing the car. Everyone wakes up and you all get on the road then on a plain then on the way to the hotel. Colby's filming but you didn't know you were sleeping. They start screaming so you wake up and roll your eyes. "You guys are so annoying" you say. They all laugh. You all get checked into your rooms. You walk into your room and start getting dizzy. You feel like your going to throw up. You sit down and try to act normal. They turn the camera off right when they go to turn it back on the lamp starts flickering right next to you. They turn the camera on. You look at the door next to you and it swings open. They all freak out. You look away from it and it swings close. You look over by the bed and see a figure. "G-guys what's that" you say. "What's what?" Sam asks. You point at it. They grab the camera. They point it at the place you pointed. "I don't see anything" Colby says. "Guys look through the camera" Nate says with a shaky voice. They look and in the camera you could see a figure that's about 7 feet tall with one single horn. "Get out" you say. "What" they say. "Not you" you say. "Oh" Nate says. "I said get out" you say. They watch through the camera as it starts heading to the window. "Go back to hell were you came from" you say. They watch on the camera as it trys to stand it's ground. "Go to hell you can't be with us we have Jesus Christ on are side" you say. When you say Jesus he starts fading away. After he was gone you feel dizzy and you feel like your gonna pass out. You start falling and Nate runs over to you and catches you. They put you on the couch Nate stays with you while Sam and Colby go to the tour. While you passed out your sleeves was pulled up a bit. He slowly grabs your arm and pulls it up. He sees all the cuts and his eyes widen. He looks at your other arm and sees them. He notices that there almost fresh. He thinks and remembers the fight you guys had and he remembers seeing the panic in your eyes when he came back to say sorry and that you had changed into pants and a sweater. He grabs his phone and text Colby since he knows that Colby goes to you about his mental health and problems.

He looks down at you and noticed that your slowly opening your eyes. You look up at him and give a weak smile. "When did we get here" you ask. "What do you mean" Nate asks. "I mean I remember walking in the room but why was I sleeping" you say. "So you don't remember anything" Nate asks. "Yeha I don't know" you say. "Ok the last thing I remember is walking into the room" you say. "Ok why don't we go get you water and meet up with Sam and Colby" Nate says. "Yeah ok that's fine" you say. You guys walk down to the pizza place.