"Never had a nigga who protects me,
Everyday with you is like a blessing.
Never had a nigga show me love,
Never had a nigga I could trust, no."
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"What happened to your girl? She messing around again?"
"Nah, i'm the one fucked up this time." I fixed my earring and huffed. Haven't talked to Onika in about six months. This isn't normal for me and I feel so....lost. What I did was beyond fucked up. I didn't try to fucking push her into the dresser. Sometimes I forget my strength and overuse it. Especially when i'm upset.
I regret that.
What I don't regret is the beginning. She shouldn't have been in the door half naked like that. For sure with him right there. That nigga annoying. Honestly, I just don't like him. Mainly because I know if it's not me she's with, it's him. Would say i'm insecure but that's not even the entire case.
"What you do this time B?"
"I put my hands on her...pushed her into a dresser. It wasn't purposely, I just couldn't control my anger at the moment. Listened to my head instead of my heart."
"Mmmm. Think you can come back from it?"
"I don't even know Keith. She talking about taking a break to focus on herself. She don't want me to contact her unless it's about Mor, but that's hard when i'm craving her presence. Like all the fucking time." I slid my heels on and grabbed my bag.
The fact that she seems so serious about this is what's hurting my heart. This is probably the biggest fuck up i've ever had. In life.
I told Mama about it and of course she had something to say. She said it's about time that we end it and I move on. She's tired of me chasing Onika. But I rather chase her than anyone else.
"Well...hopefully it all goes well at this event. Maybe try to talk to her while you're there. It'll only make sense. No telling when you'll see her again."
"Oh i'm for sure gonna see her again. Not in the way I want to, but I will."
Keith chuckled and we left out the house. There's an event for her fashion thing today. I was invited surprisingly. Like I got an invitation in the mail type shit. Haven't got one of those in a minute. Usually i'm getting a text invite. Baby went old school with that.
What if she only did mine like that so she wouldn't have to talk to me? She's petty like that.
We got in the car and he drove me to the location. I immediately spotted her car. She pulled the matte black out. I love that car so much, I tried to switch cars with her but she wasn't going for it. Her words were, "i'm not driving that short ass, yellow ass hellcat." At that moment, I just said fuck it. I love my yellow baby.
I had to show them the invitation before I went in, so i'm guessing everyone had it like this. There were assigned seats and shit. Oh she doing it big. I was sitting in my spot when a lady came up to me with a bottle of champagne. Okkkk.
Everyone was dressed really fancy, so i'm glad I decided to bring her girly clothes out. I chose to because I know Onika likes it when I go girly for her.
