⚠️mentions of death, suicide and other sensetive topics⚠️
recap of last chapter:
"And~
...
Done!"
Rush took one last look in the mirror before heading over to his filming 'studio'
In the studio/room there were some chairs, a table, a big bed, a strange looking chest, and filming equipment.
Rush walked over to the big chest where there were-
blankets, but there apeared to be something under those blankets.
Rush gently removed the 2 blankets on top, and under those blankets were:
dildos, lube, cutsey/sexy outfits, gags, and red rope.
Rush picked out some toys that mached his cutsey strawberry cow print outfit.
He layed them all nicely on the bed and picked up his phone to call his buddy Anbush.
Rush took one last glance at the toys, right there a plastic knife was laying,
it's looks were almost hypnotizing.
Rush continuesly stared at the knife, tears forming within his dark orbs.
And then, it all came flooding back.
Ambush was always there for Rush whenever he needed him.
They knew eachother since they were small kids. but as they grew older, the game they lived in 'doors'
started to die out and they needed to find new jobs.
screach worked in IKEA, figure became a teacher, seek works as a swimming instruktor and timmothy got a job in a circous near by.
Those were quite though times for everyone.
Everyone is just trying to make the ends meet one way or another.
///flash back///
Rush was sitting in his small apartament writing a note.
The only light iluminating the room was the desk light right next to Rush.
but he didnt mind the darkness.
He got use to it...
Rush never really had anyone but Ambush.
Ambush was the only person Rush actually trusted, Rush always viewed Ambush as a brother.
And even now...
Rush and Ambush are still best friends, even when Rush in in a dark point in life
Rush was finishing up the note writing his goodbye...
//*note*
To whoever who happens to read this...
Hello!
when you are reading this note, its most likely that its too late.
i tried my best to do everything i can, to just feel happy and proud of my self...
but no matter what i did it always lead back to this... this state.
I just cannot take the pain anymore.
it hurts, it hurts so fucking bad, i just want it to stop.
**to ambush:**
hi, im sorry it hadd to ens like this, but i just cant take it anymore.
i loved you, you were like a brother to me.
you really were my best friend. The only person who really cared.
goodbye Ambush.
*end of note*
Rush put the note down currling the last part up, to the point where the bottom is hidden.
He took the note and hund it up on the door outside.
he went back inside, and grabbed the thick, and seemingly old razor.
Rush threw him self against the door, as a wave of guilt and sadness washed over him...
was he really gonna do it?
rush grabbed the razor and started cutting his dark wrists where the veins were located.
the white cuts turned red and a metalic smell filled Rush's nostrils.
a gently smile apeared on Rush's face, as he glided the razor near the veins on his arm
tears were flowing down his face, his cheeks rosy red.
Rush took a deep breath rethinking his decision.
once he does the cut, its gonna be to late to back out.
Rush suddenly stopped crying when he heared knocking on the front door.
Rush hurried to make the final cut.
Soon he could only see black and his teary eyes slowly closed.
The door has been knocked town by Ambush himself.
his look grew terrifed and worried as he gazed at Rush's seemingly lifeless body.
he wasn't dead yet
Ambush quickly called 911, explaining what happened in a panik.
Tears streaming down his face.
he couldnt belive it.
Ambush quickly patched up Rush's wounds as best as he could, to at least give the ambulance a little more time.
Here every second mattered.
It's a situation between life and death
soon enough the ambulance arrived at the scene and took rush straight to the hospital.
luckily enough Rush survived the suacide attempt.
But after that something changed between the two friends, and it's never gonna be the same.
//End of flashback<3
