Memories with the Sorin

CHAPTER 9

I've never felt more betrayed.

How could he do that? He was my bestfriend for the Christ's sake! A fucking bestfriend! And after all this time? He wasn't just looking at me like a bestfriend. He made me so angry that I couldn't even stop crying that night.

I didn't even know what to believe anymore. The flowers? The hangouts? The favors he had done. I was completely lost.

Galit na galit ako sa kanya! He's been my bestfriend eversince I was still in my diapers for Christ's sake! How could he be so selfish? I wanted to cry and shout because of my frustration.

Di ko talaga siya naiintindihan!

He was a friend. A good friend.

I curled up more on my bed. Not even wanting to go to school. Baka makita ko na naman siya. I could never looked at him like how I used to after his confession. He was too selfish!

I turned to the side to look at my alarm clock on my bedside table. It's 3:47 in the morning. I didn't even sleep and was just in my bed the whole weekend.

I sighed again, staring at my ceiling. How exhausting.

"A-ail..." I kept a stern face while listening to Miss Revera.

"Hmm?" I turned to look at Saidee. Alam niya na siguro kung ano yung nangyari. He's the only one who could keep a secret.

"Okay ka lang?" He asked. Tumango naman ako. Tumango nalang rin siya at nakinig na. Di pumasok si Dos ngayon. Mabuti narin yun para wala kaming interactions dalawa.

"Mukhang nasa Centro ata yun. Inaasikaso yung passport niya." He said casually. Na parang binabasa yung nasa utak ko.

"London?" He nodded. I bit my lower lip and listened to Miss Revera again. Aalis nalang ata siyang masisira ang pagkakaibigan namin.

"Mr. Chavez and Mr. Tuazon. Stop eating. This is the classroom, not the cafeteria." Miss Revera sounded so done with the two. Napatingin ulit ako sa gawi nila. Natigilan si Marcus habang kinakagat yung chips sa kamay niya. Si Jeff naman ay kumukuha palang sa bag.

"Ingay mo kase!" Jeff hit Marcus' arm.

"Hoy anong ako-"

"Parehas lang kayong maingay. " Nanlaki ang mga mata ko nang sumulpot bigla si Dos. Hawak niya yung bag niya sa isang kamay at yung isang kamay ay kumuha sa chips ng dalawa at binigay kay Miss Revera sa harap. Bumalik ulit siya sa pwesto namin ngunit lumayo siya sa gawi ko dahil tumabi na siya kay Marcus.

Mukhang bagong gising lang, basa pa yung buhok e tapos amoy na amoy na ko pa yung shampoo niya. He looked tired and worn out.

I let out a heavy sigh and continued to listen to Miss Revera as if I wasn't affected by his presence. Wala na rin naman akong kailangan pagtuonan ng pansin sa kanya.

"Miss Lopez?" I stood up while fixing my things when Miss Revera called.

"Po?" I walked towards the front, carrying my things in on arm.

"How are you, hija?" She smiled.

I sighed and forced a smile. "I'm fine po." It was a simple question, yet a painful one. How am I? I honestly don't even know anymore. The world just seems to be against me, but of course I couldn't tell that to my teacher.

"Why po?"

"I heard you left the theater and arts club last grading. I was just worried, you loved that field, Ail. Music and directing." She smiled.

"Busy lang po sa shoots and pageants, taska I don't feel directing anymore e." I looked down to avoid her gaze. Lie again. It was... It was my passion but I had to step it aside because my mother would never let me go near in that field. She has always been clear to me about that.