Memories with the Sorin

CHAPTER 6

Warning ⚠️: self harm and violence

Guilt entered my system when I read that message. Buong klase nagmukha akong lutang dahil sa sobrang tahimik ko.

"May poblema ka ba, pres?" Jeff sat beside me. Nasa canteen kami para sa recess.

"Wala, pagod lang." I forced a smile. Napabuntong hininga ulit ako habang tinitingnan yung pagkain ko, salad ulit.

"You sure?" Saidee asked. He was sitting across us.

"LQ ba kayo ni master?" Marcus arched a brow while smirking.

"Tumahimik nga kayo." A stern voice spoke. Naglalakad siya papunta sa direksyon namin, may dala-dala takeouts. "Wag niyo ng gulohin yung tao. Pagod nga, diba?"

It was very silent when we were eating, till Jeff spoke again.

"Musta yung papa mo?" Bumalik ulit yung guilt sa sistema ko. Kinakabahan rin, na baka kung ano na ang nangyari kay tito. 

"He's okay. May konti lang sugat, pero other than that, it's all good."Dos pursed his lips.

I felt a sense of relief as I heard his words. Thank God, Tito was safe. Di ko alam anong gagawin ko if he wasn't.

"I heard many were injured." Saidee added.

"Oo, but the airline was able to help them." Tumango sila. Tahimik akong habang pinag-uusapan nila yun.

"There goes all your money." Marcus shook his head.

"Puro ka pera!" Binatukan naman siya ni Jeff.

"Ouch!" I whispered as I tripped over a wire. Nasa music room kase ako dahil I wanted to let out my emotions. Wala namang tao dito kaya okay lang na mag inggay ako at soundproof rin naman to.

I sighed heavily as I sat on my drums. Sinoot ko na kaagad yung earphones ko at nagplay ng music para masabayan ko. It started to play 'one last time' by Ariana Grande.

The drums started to make sounds as I hit it with my sticks. My feet hitting the paddle below. I closed my eyes and started singing.

"I was a liar, I gave into the fire...
I know I should've fought it at least I'm being honest." I sang. "Feel like a failure, cause I know that I failed you. I should've done you better cause you don't want a liar."

"And I know, and I know, and I know. She gives you everything, but boy, I couldn't give it to you." Music was my solace. A peaceful melody to my ears. "And I know, and I know, and I know. That you got everything, but I got nothing here without you."

I let out a heavy sigh before entering the chorus and just letting myself get drowned by the song. "So one last time. I need to be the one who takes you home. One more time. I promise after that, I'll let you go.
Baby, I don't care if you got her in your heart. All I really care is you wake up in my arms. One last time
I need to be the one who takes you home..."

My eyes were still closed as bit my lower lips when I paused. My heart was racing faster. But before I could continue I heard a pair of hands, clapping.

Nanlaki ang mga mata ko nang nakita si Dos na nakatayo. Pinapalakpakan ako. He was smiling from ear to ear. Kaya agad namang nanikip yung puso ko. Namuo ito ng kunsensiya. He was still clapping his hands for me even if I did him wrong.

"Galing mo," he whispered.

I immediately looked down as I tried to hide my tears.

"I mean how could I ever forget? You were the greatest singer there ever was." I felt him walking towards me. Ngayon lang pala ako ulit kumanta. Last time I sang, it was when we were auditioning for the music club. The night after my mother threw a me a vase. That moment still haunts me even in my sleep.