Shit I remember

11th grade

Coming back after a new months. Today is November 6th 2022

So a few things have happened, Nehemiah and I are coming up on our 1st year!! I'm excited!

If yall remember Hayden from Middle School, the one who was nice but stopped? Yeah so I asked him an apology for what he did a while back ago (he sent dick pics, no consent) and mf like laughed in my face

I understand it was two years ago but he's still in the wrong.

Another thing, I started 11th, kinda sucks!

Aidan came back into my life. He likes Andrew Tate now so uh.. yay

Update, these mfs (popular girls) made fun of my friends and I for like no reason.

I wrote it down in my notes so I'll show it on here,

"When Bambi and Cass left to go somewhere, everyone in the cluster started talking bad about them. Caleb asked if they were Gay or Straight because they were holding hands (mf doesn't know anything about LGBTQ) and looked at me and then signaled them that I was still back there. Then he said "she can't jump me" and the other girl in the black vest said "no but she can jump on you"

Then Bambi, Cass, and I all agreed to record them while we "went to the bathroom". All we recorded was their voices, not their faces so they're not able to use "you filmed me without my consent". They started to talk about how Cass and I were wearing pajamas and the girl in the black vest said "like did they roll out of bed or something?"

So all that shit happened and we told my teacher about it since those kids have been bullying them for a while now. Especially Bambi. They've been bullied by the popular boys. I mean they would throw food at them and it was messed up.

But this day was different. And kinda ruined Mr. Powell for me in general. So after we told him about those kids, he said he would handle it and we trusted him with the information. Keep in mind, that SAME day, those same kids were in his 4th block class just talking. He 100% could've told them that moment but he didn't. You wanna guess when we did?

The next day. With us in the class.

So like I said, the next day we all we just talking about the day before and the 2 girls beside us, Hayli and Sierra tell us that they've already told the Vice Principal about their bullying but they never do anything.

Then Hayli left the room and this is when shit went down.

As soon as she leaves, Mr. Powell starts whispering (we can literally hear what he's saying) and he tells the kids that "someone caught you talking shit and they said they're going to tell the vice principal. So if you're going to talk shit don't do it to someone in this class".

We were shocked. Then the kids knew exactly who it was because I guess we're the only ones who has said anything but they started looking at us and it started up so much shit.

Now it's December 27th! Had my first year with Nehemiah and were gonna have to start planning if we are going to meet with each other for Junior prom.

But to update on the popular kids, we reported them and now my friends are acting like nothing happened. I'm just hoping they have consequences to their actions.

It is officially April!! Waited a few months to post again, but some more stuff happened.

Its now May 28th and I broke up with Nemo. I broke up with him at the start of this month.

 Reason why: he still treated the Hayden situation like it was a silly thing. He used that word A LOT for it. 

Nemo is a very kind and loving person but it also made me think of the reason's why I started falling for him. He loved me so much more because he loved me since 7th grade, when we first met. I fell for him over the internet. Over things he said in Tik Tok comments. Over videos he'd send me. On Tik Tok. I barely saw his face and I hadn't heard his voice until the end of 2022. And we had our first facetime in February. 

I thought about breaking up with him for a few days but it wasnt because of anyone. It was because of our conversation about Hayden. He kept saying he doesnt think I will ever get an apology and he was right, but it was the fact that he was still calling it silly. How was it silly? He said that his friends arent dicks, THEY ARE. They're bad people and dont deserve him as a friend. Nemo deserves better friends and he will realize that when he's older, im sure. 

I never said this, but when I messaged Hayden for an apology, one of Nemo's and Hayden's other friends tried to friend request me. It was sketchy as fuck so I obviously didnt accept it. I blocked him and unfollowed his old account that we were friends on. 

But the breakup was sad at first. I still had a pit in my stomach because the night it happened, he was so cold towards me. He read the message ... and typed for 40 minutes. Im serious. You could tell he didnt know what to say because he only typed a few sentences. 

The next day, we talked some more and I told him I will always love him, as friends. He misinterpreted what I said because he continued saying what he always did and that was, "Good Morning Beautiful." I talked to him some more and were mutual now. We still talk on Tik Tok but not much else. He's not on Tik Tok as much anymore and only sends me stuff if I do. 

Im currently grounded so I cant text him. 

Anyways, my parents may or may not get a divorce. Im hoping they do. I don't hate my father and dont think I can, but his shit has gone on for too long. He's just... there. He's not emotionally available, and literally complained about spending money on my siblings, because HE wanted to hang out. 

My bad that you recommended it? My bad that you're such a shit father? 

I gotta go disappear for a few more months yall, ttyl. 

Hey yall, its currently August 10th 2023. Im listening to Pitch Perfect music on my SoundCloud playlist. (IVE GOT THE MAGIC IN MEEEE) 

So some stuff happened over the past few months, not much but its enough. So im talking to a guy named Jackson. We went on ONE date so far and were going to go on another one last Sunday, but I got into a fight with my ass father so he didnt let me go. Anyways, I wanna see him and he wants to see me so im trying to find a way for us to see each other but so far, I got nothing. 

Also, some shit with Nehemiah alright. Bro for real sent me a "My friend yelling at me after the girl he warned me about broke up with me" like bitch. Shut up, mf youre literally friends with a man who doesnt like to hold himself accountable for HIS mistakes. GOMD

It may not 100% be about me, but he hasnt gotten together with anyone else. So there is a 99% chance that its about me.