Shit I remember

Summer 2024

Hey guys! It is currently June 19th 2024. I thought I had updated this a few months ago, but apparently I did not, so here is me updating it after like 6 months!

So since Christmas, a lot of shit has happened.

January, nothing too exciting, I turned 18

February, I went to the psych ward!

It was an okay experience, honestly not too bad. It was dirty everywhere though and you HAD to wear the grippy socks 24/7 or else you'd get dirty in 0.2 seconds. The people I met there were so incredibly cool. There was one point during my week when it was a huge group of us talking about different stuff and we all got along. I felt so much adrenaline being in that room with them. It was such a diverse group of people and it was really nice being around them.

But yall I have some shit to tell you!!

So there was a guy in there named Nicholas, (WHICH SUCKS BECAUSE MY UNCLE IS NAMED THAT BUT I DON'T LIKE HIM FOR HIS NAME)

He's in the military (Army) and was a student on the base I lived on (im a military kid).

So apparently, a ton of military students from the base go to that specific psych ward if and only if they have ideations AND if they have enough beds.

As far as I know, he had hurt his knee (maybe that was someone else) and went to the emergency room. They basically trapped this man into going up stairs to the psych ward because of something he had said.

He said he'd rather be getting shot than doing what his job was.

I guess that gets you a spot in the local psych ward!

Anyways, so at first, we didnt talk a whole lot. There were other military people there, so he kinda gravitated towards them at first. Then, we started talking. I cant really remember a whole lot. Just teasing and us talking about random stuff. He was really polite to me, telling me about his life, interests, etc.

I did the exact same thing, because im polite lol.

By the way, when he came in, he ended up staying with this one guy who was also in the military.

Anyways, a few days in, this girl who was in the same unit as his friend came in and Nicholas stopped talking to me. I wont lie, I was jealous.

Not because he was talking to the girl, mostly because he just stopped talking to me period.

One day, there was a group going on that I missed, probably because I was reading. But when I walked out to grab a marker, I caught him staring at me.

I could not help but smile cause bro.

SOOO eventually, the girl and his friend are sent to the military side. He doesnt go because he was been fighting with another nurse a few days before that, so they just didnt send him there LOL

So because the people he normally talked to, left, he started talking to me and everyone else that was there.

We started talking A LOT and he ended up becoming one of the main people I talked to. We started talking about our interests and families, and once I asked him about Sam and Colby, he talked about how he wanted to go to the Goats man bridge and investigate.

THEN, he literally planned US to go and investigate. Bro we both got so giddy and he blushed so mf hard.

THENNN I was ranting about Harry Potter because HELLLOOOOO??? Its Harry Potter, and he randomly said, "my sister would love you." LIKE PLEASEEEE.

I wish yall were there because what im saying might not seem crazy, but there was so much tension.

Anyways, so at one point, Im talking to him about getting out and how im probably never going to see him again, so he writes his Snapchat, his phone number, and his instagram in my notebook.

Okay so now im out okay, we continue to talk to each other after we both get out and he told me there was something he kept thinking about but he didnt know if it was appropriate.

He ended up telling me he "wanted to do unspeakable things to me" and that he was attracted to me since we started talking at the ward. BRUHHHHHHHHHHHHH

THEN... we stopped talking.

I had asked him if he wanted a relationship with me, and he told me he did but didnt?

So I just stopped talking to him.

BUT, my cousin and I prank called him a few weeks ago pretending to be some girl named Cassie.

It was so funny, but I eventually told him it was me, and he told me to call him at 6pm in 2 days.

Did I call him? No. I was nervous as fuck and so I texted him asking if he was okay with it, but he didnt respond until late.

I still havent called.

Ill see yall next time I get on !