That Girl Jayla

I Know I Love You.

 They look at each other as he grabbed her hands into his. Believe me I am in love with you Jayla Rose. I take it back.... I dont think I am. I know i am. My feelings grow each and every second of every minute of everyday for you becoming stronger as the seconds pass by us quickly. She looked at him with a smile. "I know I love you too." She said back to him.They both jumped to the loud honk heard from outside. I'm happy you feel that way. He said to her, smiling i really am. "I just.... You should probably go.... My parents are here early." She said walking to the window. She brings him out the back door. Bye. Zach said to Jayla with a smirk. "Bye Zachary." she replies to him. Okay Jayla. See you tomorrow beautiful then he exits the door. 

         She sits in her room as he leaves the house she watches him out the window by her bed he turns around looks up at her smiles and turns back around disappearing behind the trees. She continues to smile thinking about him the way she couldn't help but do all the time. Her sister runs into the room and says your such a whore i saw him go out the back door im fucking telling mom. running back out the door. "NO!!" She exclaims going after her. She rushes her fastest to get to her to at least attempt to stop her. ... but she was to late Ariana got to her first adding in terrible things she claimed to had seen in the past few days that weren't true. Things she wouldn't even consider doing. Her mother turns back to look at her and walks up to her with tears rushing down Jaylas face. " ITS NOT TRUE MOTHER I SWEAR IT, SHES LYING FOR ATTENTION!! BELIEVE ME PLEASE BELIEVE ME" as her mother raises her hand slowly then quickly slaps her in the face. "You unholy unbelievable whore i cant believe you would do such things how do feel?! Tell me i need to know ... go pack your things your going to your aunts for a while until you decide you can be the way young ladies should be!!! GET OUT OF MY HOUSE!!!" Jayla runs upstairs still hearing all the hollering  as her other sisters unexpectedly join in against her, knowing they did not have what Jayla might of had. So she starts to write in her journal scribbling down around the tears slowly covering her paper with her door locked in case they came up there for more harassment. She looks at he dwoor  and walks over there slowly trembling in fear of herself she opens it an pulls out her pocket knife belonging to her past uncle and opens it looking at the sharp edge.... she thinks to herself if people saw it... thatd be more harassment... "What would Zach do?"   So she takes off her pants and presses it to her skin slowly piercing in blood steadily coming out... and ... she feels no pain. She feels as it is releasing anger so she continues the action. All up her sides and all down her thighs. As night time comes she doesnt bother to call Zach she just lays there all night in her thoughts.

The next day she wakes up and slowly gets dressed hurting her to move. Thinking to herself quietly repeating I didnt know i could do such a thing... Why did i do that ... Why? She hurries and gets on the bus so she doesnt have to put up with her family that rides to school with her mother her mother hollers your riding with us from now on. "NO IM NOT!!" she runs outside and catches the bus and then waits on the bus Zachary puts his arm around her and smiles then looks at her curiously "Is everything okay?" He said to her. Yea she replied "I guess.. my family knows about you and now they hate me everyone hates me i don't see why you like me i wonder if my father would've liked me?.... I doubt it but im going to find out im tired of bullshit!!" He looked at in a look of sadness and said to her softly Calm down, I'm here for you always and i love you for you because who you are ...  Please just please tell me you will at least try to believe me ... because without you the world spins of everything i never want! But... with you ... it is still... with you i stand over all, I love you Jayla Rose nothing and no one could ever change that.... never. She looks at him with tear filled eyes stroking his face "without you I don't want to live because i know my life without you and now know it with you." She pauses a moment then leans in to kiss him as their lips slowly and softly touch he has his hand on her face and the other gently holding her waist as he moves it down to her to move in closer in the seat his hand slips a little under her shirts trying to put it back on her waist. He feels her  cuts wondering what they are then in a moment of shock he stops and lifts her shirt up a little to see her sides. He says nothing with a look of failure and disappointment and eyes filled with sorrow. He says to her "You cut yourself?..."  NO! she exclaims to him and he said then what that on you Jayla Rose and she looks at him and says well yes ... i  just she paused looked to the floor of the bus I did it for the first time last night, and I don't know why its no big deal i wont do it again promise... im sorry Zachary I really am. I didn't realize how much this affects you... He looks at her as a tear slid down his cheek slowly. He whips it away staring into your eyes "Well it does... a lot what hurts you hurts me and it take a lot for an amazing girl like you to pierce your own skin with what ever blade silting your own skin seeing it bring blood to surface but continuing to do it... You must have really been through hell? ... I'm soooo sorry but never do that just come to me. I'm here for you. Always! Is that all?"  I was she replied im sorry i just i don't know what i was doing and sadly... no its not. Trusting him she unbuttons her pants not being able to say the words she pulls her pants down a little bit and shows him some of the other cuts. He looks at her then looks away and she tries to pull them back up and she groans and grunts in hurt so he turns around and pulls them up buttoning them for her. I'm going to help you with this he says to her we will get you out of this ... i promise you. 

I want to find my father maybe he would love she thinks to herself. I just cant live in my world without Zachary... Not ever again.  I don't know how id ever make it with out him.