THE DARK ANGEL

THE DARK ANGEL KHB3e

Once there was a happy lad named Klaas Hunter Bastiani the third. But as time went on he became less happy. He started becoming more depressed and pushed away from others. He started purging emotions or anything that would show weakness. Now he's a tough man with a thick armoured mask to crack. He's become so good in hiding emotions he hides them from himself. He's been having trouble with himself lately, thoughts of ending it are coming up again. But as quick as they come they go. Klaas shrugs them away like a mad dog. He's starting to slowly come out of his shell but he still heavily relies on his thick armoured mask to keep him safe. He doesn't trust anyone. Not even himself. He's afraid of everyone but he's most afraid of himself. Of the anger, rage and hate within him. He craves for blood, gore and murder but his senses tell him to stop. But he wants to keep going. He likes the thought of his classmates screaming while on fire or watching them choke on their own blood. He enjoys the thought of seeing them dead by his hand. But he loves the thought of killing a certain person the most. It's always the same trigger but always a different way she dies. He said that he's gonna teach that bitch her place. All be a little over confident I'm sure he'll get the job done. He loves the thought of seeing her dead and screaming for mercy while he skins her alive and punches or burns her open wounds or drops salt on them making the agony worse and worse for she must suffer as he's suffered. But there's a phrase that stops him from doing so. The phrase goes like this: Fear leads to anger, anger leads to hate. Hate leads to suffering. He's kept true to this ever since he heard it and it shows. He's able to control his anger much better because of it. But he also can't wait to let all of that anger, rage and hate out on someone. He pleaded for the voices of their guidance and they gave it. They told him: "This is your life, You either choose or you don't. You do or you do not. There's no try." And so he did. He listened to what his mind told him and it told him to wait for the right moment. And so he will. I'm starting to get worried about him. He's more distant to others. Hopefully WIO (work it out) can help him with that. I don't know what to do with Klaas any more. He's become so uncontrollable. That I no longer know what to do anymore. He's become so different so unrecognizable that I honestly think he's become more like Hunter than himself. Now I know that Hunter is his ideal self image but. I don't know, maybe he should do it like in his books that to strangers he's Hunter and that to friends and family he's Klaas. But I understand if that's hard for him to do. He told me that now as Hunter he's gained more confidence and pride in who he is. But I'm afraid that will be his downfall. I hope that he will one day see he doesn't need to be a perfect image or person but that you can have your flaws and that you can have your sins as long as you learn to live with them. I wonder if he even listens to me anymore. He seems to be more interested in that girl than anything else. I hope he'll find someone to see love does exist for him if he makes a little effort for it. But all and all he's a great guy who just broke from in and out but doesn't show it. Neither to himself. He always has an unreadable face and character. A classmate got close to exposing him but before he could Klaas made a dull expression as if he were bored. I worry about him but I also know that he's strong and that he'll be fine as long as he follows his given advice from me and the others. I hope to talk to him soon and maybe, I'll make another of these and attach it to his series of thoughts so he can write it down to someday show someone. I hope you get better soon, buddy. Love, John.