I've Found What I'm Looking For

Chapter 10

It felt so lonesome there, even though Ash was surrounded by family and loved ones.

But the one she did want... well, he wasn't there.

He just wasn't.

And maybe he'd never be open to her... because, he was married to a ghost.

Just let him go, her brain told her, but her heart beat fast at such an idea, you never really had him to begin with...

She was laying in bed that night, going to her room early enough. All she did there was just stare at the roof. Stare right through it nearly.

Her brain tried to make her see sense, but her heart had completely different plans in store.

Go to him when you can and TELL him you love him!

Even that idea, which was deep in the core of her heart, still hurt to feel... still hurt to understand.

Why couldn't she be a robot and not have these feelings and conflicting ideas?

Why... was being an adult and being wise so very hard.

So very hard for her, would it be hard forever?

She slowly closed her eyes and after what only felt like a second, she jumped awake at the sound of her phone buzzing.

She sat up quickly, awake and alert and realized as her eyes gazed out the window, it was morning already.

So fast the night went when one is not there... unconscious, asleep.

But enough of that musing. She quickly reached her hand over to her phone that was on the desk next to her bed, her guitar leaning near it, against the wall.

She answered the call and stilted surprised when she heard his voice.

"Hey, Ash!"

Though it wasn't who she really wanted it to be... no.

"Oh, hey Mr Moon." She said awkwardly and closed her eyes, sighing out in disappointment.

"Just wanted to let you know that we're hosting a New Year's Eve party in my theatre, on the thirty-first."

"Yes, Mr Moon..." Ash said quietly, rolling her eyes and making a small smirk, "I know when New Year's eve is."

"Good! Good!" He said back quickly, and she swore it sounded like he was given a thumbs-up on the other end of the line. It actually sounded like he was dancing in excitement over the prospect of his party, "Well! Be there or be square, as the kids say."

"No kid has said that since the fifties..." Ash replied back blankly and added on just as blank, "Bye..."

"CIAO!" He called back and she rolled her eyes again. She swore if she kept rolling them so much they'd literally fall out of her socket.

She closed her phone case and just sighed heavily.

"What's the point of going..."

She got out of bed and changed her PJs to her normal clothes, when the only animal I want to see now, won't be there...

She looked at herself in her mirror reflection and gave a half smile up one side of her face. She just stared at her expression, before exhaling heavily and getting out her make-up.

For the next few days, whenever she heard someone at the door or entering the house, she immediately always thought it was that lion.

That magnificent strong old lion.

But it never was.

After the first ten cases were just missed alarms, she had grown used to the disappointment and decided to let it go.