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17 Anirudh almost proposed Bondita, Rakshak babu instincts

Bondita looked at him painfully when he is requesting her to give a chance to heal her. What to tell him. She had unknown feelings for him  and she is scared of his reaction, his screams on their marriage anniversary day and during rituals on fake marriage day are still echoing in her ears. If she tell he will again apologise and may injure himself out of craziness or angst. She doesn't want all that. When he didn't love her from his heart why should he stay here.

With much difficult she gathered courage and gulped all tears in her throat , held his two hands and said: Barrister babu, I am not angry on you. I am fine. Absolutely fine..I just want place of change at that time so I came here. I know if I tell that you or ksj will arrange good accomodation to me and provide all luxuries.

But I don't want all that. I also want to learn the hardhsips of life understand the value of struggle so I came here. This experience will help me to understand and analyse the struggle of women of poor people and common people . So that I can work for them better in future. By staying in haveli and as bahu to zamindars I won't have good idea about the poor women struggles. 

You only taught me na  sometimes kings and princes also wander in their kingdom as common people to learn what's going on in Kingdom. Just think I am also doing like that only.

So please don't make yourself drown in too much guilty that you are the reason for my struggle. Please go back Barrister babu. If truth comes out Damini Malikin really feels bad, shattered and I also don't want my shikshak babu to remain as a cheater in  any one's gaze in this world. So please go away.

Anirudh eyes started forming tears and he said patting her hair: You have really grown up alot in these few days Bondita. I am so proud of you. Shaabash Bondita..khoob bhalo

Bondita felt proud but immediately a guilt came back. If he read her feelings he will definitely feel ashamed of her and she couldn't take it

He continued: Bondita I want to accompany you in this new journey. I want to stay with you. Infact I was the one who should learn many things from you Please don't make me go away. 

Bondita felt uneasy and sighed, shooking her head. Why is he not understanding. She is very bad in heart. The feelings which those village women Ashalatha and kusuma told are not vanished but they are becoming strong towards him day by day.

Anirudh held her hand and asked: please Bondita please don't make me away from you.

Bondita: please don't request me like this barrister Babu. I feel very bad. I am not that good. You have lot of dreams and ambitions towards society. You have your  family there.

Anirudh interrupted and said : Our family, Bondita. It's our family there. Waiting for both of us. Not me alone . Here me means me and you together.

It skipped her several heartbeats and suddenly felt blood rush in her system. She and him together...she and him together. Oh what a great feeling it is.

She again cursed herself:  no..no...
Stop this crazy thoughts. You fool Bondita, why are you forgetting hatred mantra ...hate him hate him.

He continued: I want to stay with you Bondita. Please don't send me away. Damini ji won't feel bad. I will make sure of it. Infact I have to pay back the debt to principal sir

Bondita stopped chanting hatred mantra and said fiercely: Debt ...what debt? (She raised from ground and stood, her voice started raising unknowingly)  That means are you going to give money to principal sir and Indirectly wants to give support to me financially. No need barrister babu . I don't want any financial help and I don't want you to spoil a single moment for me who is just a burden who is a major hindrance to all your happiness and pleasures