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tw: major character injury, blood mention, survivors guilt along with uhm child death mention

// Nancy's POV //

I stood there. Tears streaming down my face. I was hurt. I just cant believe I lost them just like that. And now my son is in the hospital.

I am a horrible mother.

They look so happy in the photos. 

Olivia was inevitable. I couldn't do anything. I wish I took better care of Nathaniel. But with Aurora and [⬛⬛⬛]... I could've protected them. Now most of them are dead and one probably doesn't even recognize me.

I am a horrible mother.

It should've been me. 

Nathaniel was happy. I held his hand as I wept, saying how much I loved him. He left with his final breath "I'm glad I met you, Nancy." I have never sobbed harder. I still feel like he's here with me. I cry every time I visit his grave.

I'm a worthless excuse of a wife.

And not only did I lose most of my family, I had recently lost my eye as well.

I was working in the factory I usually work at. Something happened and a hook had gotten stuck in between something. The tools used to pry the hook out (since it gets stuck frequently) were in maintenance so me and a few other workers grabbed some gear like protective suits and eye protectors. We all gathered and tried to pry it out together. I made the mistake of being too close.

We pulled and pulled and before we knew it, it let go. It was supposed to immediately fly up into its holder but because I was close it went through the protective glass and scratched my eye. it somehow didn't harm my skin but just my eye ball. I remember hearing the blood vessels pop and hearing squelching sounds. It was tremendously painful and I was taken to the hospital where they had to remove my eye.

I have to empty my eyelid out once every week because it fills up with blood. Its disturbing to feel the blood pool out and sometimes I wake up with small blood "tears" down my eye.

Hm? My phone rang. I picked it up and it was the police department.

What happened?

"Is this the mother of [⬛⬛⬛⬛⬛], Nancy Jones?" an officer spoke.

"Yes, is something wrong?" I was nervous. What happened to my son?

"Is your son currently in your residence?" the officer asked.

"No.. he isn't."

"It appears that your son had gone through a manic episode and ran away. Although, we are still unsure if thats what really happened."

"WHAT!? No.. He.. He wouldn't do that!" I was in shock.

"I'm sorry ma'am, do you have any idea where he might be?"

"No, I don't, please tell me you guys have some sort of lead!"

"The most we have is surveillance video and missing spare clothing. Would you like to make a missing persons report?"

"Yes! Please! Find my son!" I had started crying again.

" We will call you again when we find leads. Goodbye."

"Goodbye." They hang up.

I couldn't believe it. My own son? Running away? Why? Why would he run away? Were the staff being mean to him? Did he not like the environment? Did the patients stress him out? Why..

No. I will help the police. The last thing I need is another death in my family.

I cleaned out my eye socket, wiped my tears, got myself ready, grabbed my things and headed out to the police station.

As I got into my car, I suddenly got flashbacks to when I used to take Olivia and [⬛⬛⬛] to school. I could feel my tears form up again as I remembered my husband.

"C'mon Nanc'... pull yourself together." I sniffled and I drove off.

~~time skip~~

I arrived at the police station, I got out of my car and walked in.

There's no way I'm gonna lose my son. He's the only family I have left anyway.

"Hello Ma'am, how may I help you?"

"Is there any way I can help with finding [⬛⬛⬛⬛⬛]?"

///end///

lol i was reaaally lazy wiff dis chaptrrrr HEHEHEEHOOEHIFBOH next chaptr iz mr fox an mystery doe hehe also sorry if its shrort :p