Keeping Hope, Anna

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Dear Noah,
You will never receive this and I never plan to send it to you. But in case we might meet again, I figure you might want to hear about what's going on. I feel like everyone hates me here. All I seem to be good at lately is ticking people off and driving them away. James, ones of my best friends, is still mad at me because of something I said last Friday regarding his ex girlfriend, Tiffany. Tiffany is also one of my best friends, she's not mad at me but she's keeping secrets. She says it's "too hard to talk about," but I just wish she would tell me. I just want to help her get through what is going on. I have also chased away the only person I felt had my back, Sam. I'm not sure what I said or did to upset him but he seems extremely mad at me. I am being crushed by the weight of school, track, my friends and parents. I seem to suffer in silence, the only person I told about my feelings was Sam, but even now he has turned his back on me. My parents do not know I have cried myself to sleep for the past week since they are two floors above me. And I fear to tell Tiffany because I do not want to worry her, she has already stopped eating, saying, "she's not hungry," but I think it is more than that. I put an act on at school so no one can see the pain I feel. I just wish I had someone to hold me and tell me everything is going to be alright, but I know there is no one willing to do that for me. I miss you

Keeping Hope,
Anna