Ayan was enveloped by the darkness when suddenly he noticed a speck of light.
There, he saw Akk's figure standing tall as if he was waiting for him. He ran to Akk's side, and he could see Akk opened his arms widely. Ready to welcome him.
Ayan could feel Akk's arms wrapped around his body tightly. He was delighted. He really did. He looked up at Akk's face that was smiling at him.
"Akk, i missed you. Lets go together na." Ayan said, almost whining, his deadliest weapon. Akk would always gave in after Ayan's whines. But this time, Akk shook his head. He let go of Ayan before he walks away from him, leaving Ayan alone there.
Ayan ran after Akk. He tried his best to catch up to him. But Akk's silhouette was getting smaller and smaller until it completely disappeared, engulfed by the light.
In despair, Ayan opened his eyes. It was a completely different sight in front of him.
There's no darkness nor that speck of light from before. He remember where he currently at. It was Akk's room. And around him was his mom, and Akk's parent looking at him with worry apparent in their eyes.
Ayan who was initially laying down, tried to wake up and sat on the bed. His mom rushed to his side before hugging him so tightly.
"Aye, Luk. You're awake! Thank God, you're awake, Luk!" His mom said, followed by sobs. Ayan was still in a daze.
Before long, Akk's parents also rushing to Ayan's side, joined the hug. Being hugged by three people at once, while listening to their cries, Ayan finally couldnt contain himself anymore.
He burst into tears as he called out Akk's name repeatedly.
***
Ayan walked around the beach near Akk's house. In his hands was an urn, filled with Akk's ashes.
His hands were stroking the urn as his eyes looking into the sea.
"Luk, lets go!" urged Akk's parents as they went into a boat, followed by Ayan's mom too. Soon, Ayan followed suit.
The four of them get into a boat that Akk's parents usually use to went fishing.
Ayan was on the deck with his mom and Akk's mom when Akk's father started the engine, before they finally sailed.
In the middle of the ocean, Ayan was looking at the constantly moving water.
He remember those day when he finally letting his uncle go. He went to the sea with Akk, to send his uncle away. He cried so hard but Akk was there, assuring him. Embracing him in his warmth.
But today was totally different. This was something he wish would never happened.
After that day, they went back to school in a completely different mood. Everyone seems happy about the changes that took place in their once rigid school, Supphalo.
Akk also managed to keep his best student title after their graduation. After that, they planned to enroll to the same university and live together. Which were actually happened.
Life was promising, and future seems so bright ahead of them. Its just way too unexpected for Ayan, to suddenly lost his loved one, yet again.
He thought they were only a step away from happiness.
Their school life was smooth sailing, their parents and friends were supportive.
Ayan couldnt ask for more.
But now, he could.
If he could turn back time —which is impossible- he would make sure Akk was completely okay.
If Akk was still with him, he would try his best to convince him how good of a person he was.
If Akk was still here, he would say he loved him as much as he could.
If only he could.
Yeah. If only he could.
He walked to the edge of the deck, followed by the other three.
He opened the lid of the urn in his hands. He put his hand in the urn before grabbing a bit of the ash inside. He motioned his hand onto the sea, throwing the ashes into it.
He cried, again. He handed over the urn to Akk's parents. Letting them put away the rest of it into the ocean.
His mom was on his side, rubbing his back gently. Ayan smiles at her, assuring her that he was okay now.
He have let it go. He let Akk go. Letting him go to a better place where he was nonexist, just yet.
He closed his eyes. The winds blowing quite strongly, passing by Ayan's body.
He was now incomplete with Akk's departure. But he will continue living. So, Akk would have to wait for him there.
Ayan smiles again. His chest no longer felt heavy. He took a deep breath as he thought:
Lets meet again, when my time's come, Akk.
Akk. I'm forever loving you, my Akk.
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