dear kim jong in,
it had been a month and a half with three hours and forty-two minutes with ten seconds since i wrote here.
somehow, i found my happiness in a vain city of video games. people still support you even through you had left a band that contained twelve emotional males that are breaking apart every year. I known that leaving was the best of me, but I left with a broken heart from a bipolar person that can't find his own love.
i know that I still love you, jong in, but i have to let it go for the best. I now have a beautiful, talented girlfriend that supported me knowing that my anxiety level was to high and I couldn't calm down, but she did. she did everything for me, even though she know that I wasn't going to love her, but you.
then when you left me with no reasoning or something, she was beside me. trying to keep me strong fromm all the emotions that I was about to get. depression, anxiety, and other bullshit that I can't even write down.
hui chanyoung.
she helped me survive a useless crisis by staying by my side. and now I am happy.
i hope that you will understand what I am saying right now.
