All is forgiven. Not. (Alex Vause)

Chapter 9

Alex's PoV

I stand back with a smirk as I watch Y/N's eyes wonder from me to Nicky. Her expression confused and maybe even a little hurt.

"So what if I fucked your ex?"

"Bros before hoes?" I scoff at the saying and cross my arms.

"Oh don't you go around calling me a hoe, besides I wouldn't think you and Nichols are 'bros' but you can just ask her."

Nicky stands next to me, silent. Her expression filled with guilt as she didn't expect Y/N to react that way. I mean I did tell her that she wouldn't mind, so maybe that is on me. But I thrive off of chaos and Y/N has been annoying me lately.

"I- Y/N/N... I feel bad, I didn't mean for it to happen it just kinda did? I mean I cherish you so much as a friend and I admire you." She takes a deep breath and looks up at my ex girlfriend. "I'm very sorry, but I didn't think you would care."

"You're right, I don't care who you fuck and all that. But I do care about when you betray me. I told you about Alex and what she did, plus I told you about my feelings." She shakes her head and rubs her face with her hands.

"God why do I always get close to the wrong people." She mumbled, probably not expecting us to hear it. I shake my head and look away from the girl that I still have feelings for.

"I think we should talk about this more tomorrow."

"I agree Nick." I hear a scoff from Y/N's side, looking at her with a raised eyebrow which just made her roll her eyes.

"Yeah, let's talk tomorrow."

She leaves the bathroom and it all falls quiet. I turn to the bushy haired girl and see that she was already looking at me.

"You said she wouldn't care."

"Well I thought she wouldn't." I shrug and look to the ground.

"God, I'm so stupid for letting you do that." She groans and rubs her eyes with her hand.

"It wasn't that bad, she didn't yell."

"Yeah, that's the whole thing. She didn't yell. She yelled when she found about Red, so I would think that she would also yell. I don't know, it was weird."

"Oh she'll get over it."

"What if she doesn't?"

"What?"

"What if she doesn't get over it and I just ruined my friendship with her?"

I sigh and put my hand on her shoulder for comfort. "She will, she's probably not even mad at you, but more at me. She thinks I lured you in or some bullshit."

She sighs and looks at me. "I better go, it's almost time for lights out."

I nodded and looked at myself in the mirror when she left. I don't even know what I'm doing. The disgust and hurt I saw in Y/N's eyes after she saw us together is the same as when she caught me cheating that one time. And after that I promised her to never do that again, but I did it. Well not really because we're not together... but I've stayed pretty loyal to her.

Shaking my head I walked out of the bathroom and headed back to my cubicle.

-

Y/N's PoV

It's been a few days and I've been ignoring both Alex and Nicky, so even if I sit with my mum and her gang I just ignore the two of them. I can't say I'm happy with the outcome of the talk I had with Nichols but I told her that I just needed time, since she kinda betrayed my trust or whatever.

At the same time me and Poussey have been getting closer, in a friend way. I am not sure I want any kind of prison relationship anymore. I'll just wait out the 13 months and then think about more than just my sex life.

"Hey Y/N!"

I feel a warm hand on my shoulder, picking up my head from the book I see the girl that I was just thinking about.

"Hey Washington. How's it going?"

"Ah, nothing new, y'know. Are you excited for visitation hours?"

"Yeah, I've got some business to take care of." I wiggle my eyebrows and she catches on.

"Y/N/N you player." Hitting me on the chest, she sits down in front of me.

"So, tell me about her."

"Well, she's my-- I guess you can call her my girlfriend. And before you say anything, no she doesn't know that I hooked up with Maritza."

The girl before me nods and leans in. "Well, will you tell her?"

"I dunno, should I?"

"I don't know. The only relationship I've ever had was in my late teens so-- Can't help there."

-

I guess I won't tell her, I mean I don't feel the need to— What she doesn't know won't hurt her.

I took a deep breath before plastering a big smile on my face; walking towards the visiting area.

Seeing my "girlfriend" sitting in the middle looking around, she looked so unfazed you'd think that she was at a cafe or something. I guess prison doesn't scare or intimidate her.

"Jules."

Running up to her, she stood up to hug me which I returned. But shortly after we were told to break it up.

"They've got sticks up their asses."

"You're telling me?" I chuckled and sat down across from her, this was nice.

"So, how are you? Did anyone beat you up yet?"

"No, not yet. But I was a target for one of the gangs."

She raised an eyebrow and leaned in. "You? The same Y/N that was always too scared to kill a spider? The same one that always asked for help when getting the groceries."

I nodded and blushed ashamed. "What did you do for them to target you baby?"

"Well- Im not entirely sure, I guess I could've attacked their leader or something."

She tucked a strand of my hair behind my ear, the smile never leaving her lips. She was looking at me like I was a kid.

"Awh, little Y/N doesn't know how to work at a jail."

I rolled my eyes. "Shut up, I'm handling myself well."

We talked more until it was time to leave. She told me that she will visit soon, and that she has some important news for our next visit.

"I'll miss you baby."

She hugged me, but this time the guards let us hold each other for longer. While being in her arms my eyes scanned the room, falling on one dark haired woman.

"Shit."