Twisted Truth

Chapter Twenty One

ADDIE

Its been three days since Rocco walked out of the apartment. I thought he would come back once he cooled off but he didn't. He left me alone. Maybe completely alone is a bit of an exaggeration, Jess was with me for the first night. Its like the shooting brought us closer, its opened her eyes to the world that I was brought up in.

As much as Jess wanted to stay with me, life carries on. She has a job and I am a big girl, my situationship has left me and I just have to get on with it.

Speaking of Rocco, even though he has chosen to leave, the routine is still the same. Shane and Bruno still cart me places and if I'm being honest I am getting sick of the sympathetic looks from them.

Its starting to piss me off.

I guess the one positive part of this whole shitshow, is that Chase has made more of an appearance. He really is the brother I always wanted. Don't get me wrong Daniel is an amazing big brother but he has always had to take more of a father role. I don't always like the way he tries to parent me but I would most likely be dead if he hadn't. Daniel is my literal saviour, I don't always say it but he truly is the best brother.

Chase however, is the fun and carefree one. I am able to confined in him without fear of being judged. We can chat for hours about absolutely nothing and I love it. It truly did bring a real smile to my face when he turned up at the front door this morning. Did the smile reach my heart. No it didn't but it was a genuine smile so that's a start.

Reluctantly Chase has dragged me out of my den of doom into the world of life. Do I like it? No but I am going with it anyway. Anything to get me out of the house and out of my head.

I would not have choosen to visit Daniel and Rose to lighten my mood but it is what it is. I don't have much time to think about it before we are at the door. This house has always been beautiful, I have always loved staying at it. The short stay I had here when I first moved over, I spent most of my time in the impressive gardens. I would lose myself with my nose in a book, surrounded by the most amazing scenery. It was very therapeutic.

My brows furrow when I only notice one car in the driveway and its not Daniel's. Oh come on, please don't tell me I'm gonna have to spend my time with Rose. Especially after me going for her mother then storming out. Thinking about it, my life went pete tong right after that bloody dress fitting 

Chill Addie, it's not her fault.

"Why are we here?" I pipe up as we get out of the car.

"I thought you could do with some distraction. What better way than to face you with another problem to get you over your other one." Chase muses and I really want to kick him in the balls right now.

"Oh geeze, thanks." I deadpan. Not finding this at all funny. I could think of a hundred different things I'd rather be doing.

Drinking bleach is one of them.

Chase laughs before leading the way through the massive double doors. I drag my feet, feeling extremely uncomfortable with my surroundings. I loved this house back then but that was because usually it was just me staying here. It was my own personal safe place. Now it's unfamiliar and the lady of the house is now residing here. And as I've said before, we don't tent to get along. Or should I say, I don't think she likes me very much.

"You look like I've just killed your new puppy. Relax it's just Rose, give her a chance. She was the one that suggested this in the first place." Chase mutters, annoyed at my facial expressions apparently.

His words surprise me but I remain silent. It may be a childish act but the people who surround me seem to think of me as a child so why not act like one.

"She is all yours. I'll just warn you though Adaline is not in the best of moods." Chase announces, patting me on the back before leaving.

Arsehole. I take back all the nice things I said about him.

I refrain from glaring. Always feeling bad expressing negative emotions towards Rose. I have no reason why. It's probably because she hasn't outright been rude to me but I've overheard enough to know that she isn't my biggest fan.

"Would you like a cup of tea?" Rose asks and I could laugh at how British that question is. Oh how I miss home and a decent cup of tea. Never the less I nod my head, giving her a soft smile.

"Please." I sit at the breakfast table and watch her make it. "Why did you want to see me?" My curiosity getting the better of me.

"I wanted to see how you were. Plus I actually wanted to thank you for putting my mother in her place."

Now that is a shock!

"I'm sorry?" I need her to just confirm what she has just said. Just to make sure I heard right.

"Why do you sound so surprised? My mum was so rude and you putting her in her place made my day." Rose laughs at my obvious shocked expression. "Don't look so surprised! We may not be as close as we once were Addie but I do admire your way with words.... sometimes."

Her confession makes me smirk in amusement. My views on Rose might have been twisted by the last few years but at one point we were close. The closest thing I had to a sister at one point but my addictions and my actions put a mass amount of pressure on all my relationships. I lied, stole and said terrible things.

I was a horrible person, I pulled everyone down around me and I'm the one at fault, I always have been. I've spent years blaming everyone else around me for my misfortunes.

In reality I wasn't strong enough. I'm too weak, I always have been. No wonder no one ever stays. I am a walking train wreck. I feel like I am drowning and I wish that gun had gone off and just ended it all.

"I'm sorry." I randomly call out, too caught up in everything in my brain.

"What are you sorry for darling?" Rose frowns in confusion. Taking in my saddened state.

"For everything, I was so horrible to you back in London, even now! I keep fucking up and I can't seem to get it right, ever. Like the other night, I put myself In a dangerous situation that could've killed me and its lost me my person. He's gone and I really wish that gun had killed me." I confess in a flurry of words that I dont even know make sense. I think the scary part is, I have no emotion in my voice.

I'm completely numb.

"Adaline....you were ill and what happened to you was not fair and unjust and you had every right to lash out the way you did. Sweetheart, I don't blame you and neither does your brother. I had given you space because that is what you needed and I was waiting for you to be ready to let me back in again." Rose's words have tears streaming down my face. I needed to hear that.

The sob ribbing through my chest has me choking for air. Which has Rose pulling me into her arms, where I completely brake down. My sobs making it hard to breathe and I can feel the panic attack forming. I start to hyperventilate but Rose's calming nature and her protective arms, I start to breathe again.

"You're okay, shhh you are okay." She whispers over and over again into my ear until I start to regulate my emotions.

A few hours have past since I went all emotional and crazy. Rose and I have been sat watching movies on the couch together, just like we did when I was an kid. The sweet buttery scent of popcorn fills my nose and the flicker of the candles has my eyes drooping. Gosh I am shattered.

The sudden clatter of the front door has us both startled. I know that Daniel isn't due home for a while so my heart begins to pound. My eyes widen at who walks through the threshold. The one person I never expected to see.

Rocco Rodriguez.

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