Levi sat alone in his room with only the light of a candle sitting on the corner of his desk to help him see as he read the letter, addressed to him from his commander.
Levi soon realized half way through the letter that it mainly centered around praising the smaller one on his ability to fix a situation that got too out of hand. Basically him seperating jean and erens little fight during training without harming anyone of the cadets seemed to impress his commander.
Seeing a more gentle side of the normally agressive man made the other think that Levi needed a proper thanks for having a tiny bit of patience left in him. In this he wrote him this letter. The letter in which Levi could hardly keep in his hands, having to lay it down on the flat surface of his desk before the rather harsh jerks of his hands ripped the paper in half.
He was enjoying this small read. Happy to see that someone cared or even payed attention enough to see the difference in the way he acted.
Continuing down the page, while his hands still flapping happily but simmered down quite a bit. He read with a straight face unable to say if he was happy or somewhat weirded out. He's never had someone care about him this much after Isabel and furlans death. He also has never handled affection as someone else would. His body showed it more then he could say it. He's never necessarily liked how his hands jerked or flapped, snapped or just moved weirder then others.
Over time he got used to it though. Having a friend that does this as well helped a lot with letting it out. He knew how to sit on his hands. Knew to let out only very small shakes, or just a twitch of his head blaming it on the cold or from a bug annoying him. Nothing in him could tell someone he was autistic, either knowing no one would believe him or because he didn't train himself to hide from others just to let them in with only one sentence.
The only ones he has told have been the commanders, most finding out for him. Like Hanji and Nanaba, who had rather asked why he moved the way he did, or we'll Hanji did, Nanaba thought it was rude of them to ask. All and all Levi told them why at the end of their bickering on weither it was okay or not to have asked.
Mike, Erwin, and Nile had found out from his files. Having to look through them to write reports after an incident on base or what happens outside of the walls. These files have practically everything about you in them, name, gender at birth, age, date of birth, mental health, disability, everything.
Its actually kind of scare to think they have everything from when you we're born. But still good knowing that if in time of danger you can see their character on one page.
Once he got to the final few sentences he realized that his senses were on completely different levels of intensity. Flapping hard and can hardly keep his straight face from breaking. The compliments also seemed to become more personal each sentence towards the end. These range from how pretty his smooth calm voice sounded to how amazing he was at asserting who he was and how much higher in rank he was.
Made him all to happy, more excited then fluster, like how he thinks he should feel. His mind and body reacted completely different when it came to emotions. In some instincts he thought he should feel sad but reality his body made him feel guilt.
Although the flush came later.. when Erwin signed off..
I think I chose right when saying you were the one to be captain
-Commander Erwin
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Been gone for a bit and don't have much to say just enjoy two in a day type of thing i guess. Short but I think is one of the best I wrote.
Again if I'm upsetting anyone that is autistic by writing this please tell me. I read all comments if you don't like or if it makes you uncomfortable please tell me I'll replace this story with another.
(Having parents that are ablest or just dont believe in some mental issues fucking sucks. I'm not diagnosed for anything but believe I have a little issue with myself, and again to just say how important it is to say if you are uncomfortable.)
Anyways
~Byo~
