Christmas Gone Wrong (VegasPete) - Completed

Fears

22nd December 2022

Dearest Snowflake,

Hey, how are you? Grey and I are doing great here. I just came back from the physiotherapy session. I am left with two more appointments and then I'm good on my own. The amount and doses of medicines are the bare minimum now—which is a relief. I was so sick of tasting the bitter aftertaste and at one point, I was even afraid my tongue might go numb from taking these medicines like a solid five-course meal. It honestly feels so great. I'd finally be able to taste food the way it's supposed to taste.

I won't easily try new cuisines or dishes unless I have a person who I could use as a backup, you know?

Don't worry, Snowflake. I got you. If we ever went out together, I'll make you try a lot of new things and you can do that without a worry cause I'll be there for you.

Something tells me that if I continued listing any further, you might start rolling your eyes and shaking your head. so I'll stop here.

Whatever thing tells you that, you can tell it to shut up. I won't mind even if you wrote me an essay on 'Why Dried Fruits are a bad idea' or 'Why Desserts are flawless.'

I'll take anything you'd send along my way with a big smile (serious).

Mostly anything Icy and Sweet. As I said, I got a sweet tooth.

Now I know where all the sweetness comes from ;)

I really resisted the urge to write that but at this point, my hands have developed a brain of their own. I hope you'd go easy on my poor flirting skills. If you hadn't noticed, it's been quite a while. But don't worry, it's getting better with regular practice :)

Unfortunately, I have not yet tried crushed ice with any of the syrup. But, I am going to today and if I got sick, you will be the one treating me. Deal?

I can imagine how entertaining it was to be your friend.

Thanks to myself, I got a lot of vacancies open for that now. What do you say? Wanna try being my friend? Or...

You know what? Let's move to the questions before I say any more dumb things.

As we are progressing, your questions are getting deeper. I don't think I've used this side of my brain in a long time. But no complaints. I'm enjoying every bit of it!

-> What are my fears?

I didn't have many fears as a child. Now? I think I got tons. It's ridiculous how each year adds something to the already long list.

Let's count some, shall we?

Being stuck. I am afraid that the year after year would pass by and I would still be stuck where I am. I may not necessarily be at the worst possible place right now but the thought of not making any significant progress scares me. What if two years from now I'd still be in my room with the same colours on my walls, the same notes of resolutions stuck on it and I realise even after two years, they are still just as incomplete? It's a scary thought.Needles. But it's not as bad now thanks to the accident after which I had to face way too many needles for my liking. The thought of it still makes my hands sweaty but at least it doesn't end in hyperventilation now.I don't think I could exactly call it fear of death. More like the fear of the aftermath?