Never Ending Y Dolor Del Pasado

Twenty-three

Irene was already at the peak of her anger she went to her daughter and slap her hard causing avery to fall down on the floor, "what did you do? Hindi ka na ba natuto noon ang kapatid mo and now your father?! Are you even thinking?", Irene shouted

"Irene!", Imee shouted at her sister to stop her

"You're such a dissapointment, kung galit ka sakin ako ang ipahamak mo wag ang daddy mo! Hindi na kita kilala, asan na yung anak kong pinalaki ko?!"

"It's always had been noah death mommy no? Am I right ako parin ang sinisisi mo until now. Ngayon nagtataka ako? Nagka-ayos pa tayo kung hanggang ngayon ako padin pala ang sisihin mo ang daya mo naman e, bat laging pagkakamali ko nakikita mo? Kung nasasaktan ka nasasaktan din ako at kami. Alam ko dissapointment ako yun naman lagi mong pinapamukha sakin noon pa diba, hindi mo ako kilala? Wow talaga ba? Sabagay tama ka naman hindi mo na ako kilala kase hindi mo naman sinubukan kilalanin ako ulit bilang anak mo e.", Avery fired back answering sniffling already

"I wanted to feel numb for me not to feel anything anymore kase hindi ko na kaya, being useless maybe is already crept on my system. Walang akong kwentang anak, apaka bobo ko. Sometimes I think siguro nagsisi ka na din na naging anak mo ako mom, kase napaka walang kwentang anak ko! And Im so stupid to believe na maayos pa nating dalawa ang relasyon natin, what a fool lies."

And with that Irene was too stunned to speak already, all you could her was their sobs surrounding the room not until avery had spoken again.

"you're so selfish but you know what it doesn't matter anymore, I don't care anymore on how you despise as I'm so into it already. But you know what I don't know because eventhough many times you hurt me I still love you, and I hated myself for that. The fact that I can't hate and unlove you no matter what you do.  I'm sorry for I am not perfect, I also have feelings. I'm now rebuilding myself but then you shattered it again once more, you shattered it a couple of million times and I'm so so damn tired proving you that walang akong kasalanan to everything that's happening. I'm so tired trying to win your attention back. I bacame selfless just for you, but I guess no matter what I do you can't love me as before and see me as your daughter because you're too blinded. Blinded to listen and see the truth, I hope you see it before it's too late", avery stated without any emotion. She flashed a sweet smile before she leave the room, it made the whole family dumbfounded most especially her mom who can't even move.

Avery run outside the hospital and waited for a taxi right after she instructed give the address she was deeply thinking of what had happened today was supposedly to be happy but ended up as a tragedy. She was deeply in pain that she can't even think off what to do next her mom's words keep on echoing on her mind.

Avery then arrived she payed the taxxi and went to her room, gladly  all thier maids was still on vacation so she's all alone now at thier home. Silence elope her whole being when she enters her room but her inside there was a monsters screaming her heart out, she then sat down and let all her pains and questions turned into tears. A tears that is like a river it flows non stop like there would be no tomorrow's already. She closed her eyes feeling the pain on her chest.

On the other hand everyone don't have the energy to follow avery as everyone of them was too stunned to react  and even utter some words, it made all of them feel what avery is going through that none of them single knows aside from liza and bong. Irene was still crying looking at her husband, liza then stood up and went to Irene.

"I don't have the right to tell you this as I respect you as my husband younger sister and my cousins wife but for you just to know. I tried my best to bring up the avery we all once had, you don't even know a single thing that's happening towards her when you choose to believe your own lies that's keep running down your head rather than to listen to her own explanation. She went through everything just for your forgiveness, she wanted you Irene and that's the thing I can't do anything about. Yung anak mo gustong gawin ang lahat makita mo lang siya bilang anak mo ulit pero ikaw lagi nalang sisi ang isinusukli mo. Do you know how countless times she questioned herself for not being enough, how many times she tries to took her own life just because she always thought that she was a just a dissapointment. Do you know how sleepless night and countless tears she cried. You weren't there when we saw her crying, did you know your daughter can't sleep without sleeping pills? Alam mo ba kung ilang beses na siyang nagtangkang magpakamatay? You didn't know because you choose not to mind her, all this time and years she just wanted you Irene. It's all you whom she wanted but you disregarded her and now this again? Are we all gonna let her suffer and be in a miserable state of life? Everything is too much for her to carry at kung hindi mo kayang tulungan at makita ang anak mo ako na ang pupunan non para sayo.", Liza said as she walk out of the door and started to look for avery.