Self Harm Imagines

Carl grimes x fem reader

"Shit! Carl?" You slowly backed up into the corner of the grocery store. You And Carl were on a supplies run. There was a group of walkers and you had run out of bullets, it doesn't help you forgot your knife. Carl said he'd be right back. Where the hell was he? You were currently holding them back by shoving them away with a pole you found on the ground. Not watching what you were doing, you stabbed the pole forward again, but this time your arm got caught on the sharp edge of a shelf. Wincing in pain, you notice a couple fresher cuts were now opened. Shit what the hell am I supposed to tell carl...? In that exact moment, Carl stepped through the door, knife in hand. He killed all of the remaining walkers. "Y/N are you ok? I'm so sorry I didn't think it'd take that long" you shake your head and smile at him, trying to hide the blood staining your shirt and the floor beneath it. "It's ok Carl, I'm fine." He was smiling, until he noticed you were hiding your left wrist. "Did your hurt your arm?" He said cautiously, taking a slow step toward you, "uhhh no I don't think so?" Carl stopped in front of you and squinted his eyes at you "Well then show-" "omg Carl were going to miss curfew let's go." Grabbing his hand, you both pick up all the stuff and pack it up in the vehicle.
The entire car ride, all Carl could think about was your unwillingness to show your wrist. His dad had told him once about Self Harmers. Carl had a pretty good idea about how to address the situation. Talk very calmly and lovingly. He needed to talk with someone about it before he took action. He'd ask his dad when they got back. When you got back to Alexandria, you were going to go visit Enid who you were best friends with. Before you could walk away Carl grabbed your arm, "Wait! Babe can we talk later, after you go hang out with Enid?" You could feel the anxious ball in your stomach, weighing you down. "Sounds good." With that you sped away, going to meet up with Enid. Carl noticed the fact of how anxious you looked. He instantly felt bad, knowing how your time with your Best friend was going to be ruined with anxious thoughts. He was right, the entire time you were with Enid, you were sobbing into her shirt. Her calmly stroking your back and hushing you. You were muttering over and over "he's going to hate me." Enid knew about your problem, but had decided she wouldn't tell Carl. She didn't want to complicate things, and she cared for you and Carl. But when it was getting late, she kissed your head and pulled you up, " listen Y/N/N, I understand how anxious your feeling. But you were going to have to tell him at some point. He will love you either way, I promise. I will walk you to his house." Wiping your tears, She grabbed your hand, and with that, you guys were off.  When you guys got to his house, she gave you a big hug. Inhaling, you grabbed her a little tighter. She pulled back and wiped the remaining tears of your wet cheeks. "It will be ok, he loves you." You give her a panicked look, as she walked away, always glancing back at you. She looked up to the window, seeing Carl sitting up there, watching it happen. You walk up to the door and into the house. You had the strange feeling like you were walking towards unescapable doom. Going up the stairs and into Carls room. Slowly pushing the door open, you pull the long sleeves of your sweatshirt over your hands. Carl looked up from the ground, noticing your panicked expression and wet cheeks. "Hey." He basically whispered. "Hi." You could barely hear your voice. He sighed and patted his bed, which he was sitting on. Sitting down, you tried so hard to not let the tears fall down. He hugged you, and kissed your cheek as he pulled away. His dad told him to be affectionate but not too much. You sniffled, locking eyes with him. His blue ones were filled with sadness. "Y/N? Before you say anything, I need to say something. I genuinely love you. Your hair, your smile, your facial expression when your pissed. You are perfect to me, absolutely 100% perfect. I need you to know I will always be here for you, no matter what." That's when you couldn't hold it any longer, tears ran down your face , "and because I love and care for you, I need you to show me your arms." You moved away, back to him. "No." You said. He sighed, putting his hand on your shoulder, " why not? Baby I need to, please?" You sniffled, a sob rocking your body, " because you will leave and hate me. You'll think I'm even more ugly that I already am." He knew it would be tough. " I could never hate you, your amazing! I love every part of you. Every damn part. I need to check." Slowly, you turn around, eyes teary and red. "You wont be mad?" Carl gave you a surprised look, " of course I wont be mad, not at you!" You nodded. Handing him your shaky hand, you watch as he slowly slide your sweater up your arm. The scars bothered him, but not as much as the fresh cuts. The bloody ones. You winced as he ran his hand over your wrist. "How fresh are these?" You sniffled, "An hour ago or so." He squinted his eyes, "hey now, weren't you with Enid." You nodded, " yes but she had to go get something so I was alone for 20 minutes." He sighed. Then stood up and ran his fingers through his hair. Pacing up and down his bedroom, he stopped. " What the hell." He muttered under his breath. "What the hell!!" He said a little louder. "WHAT THE HELL!!" He yelled. There were tears dripping down his face. That's when he saw: You were in a ball, clawing your wrist. He rushed towards you, "stop that." You didn't stop, no matter how hard he tried, your finger nails were staying near your bloody skin. "Goddamnit, let go." Tears were falling down both of your faces. He finally pulled your fingers away from your dripping wrist. "I'm going to help you, ok?" He sat next to you. " I need you to be here, on earth. I know it's hard, this is a shitty world. But I NEED you to stay. Your my person and I need you." He pulled you close, never wanting to let go. He pulled away "Now listen, I need to go get a first aid kit. I need you to control yourself till I come back with it. Kay!?" You nodded, desperately grabbing his arm before he goes. "Don't go for long." Carl smiled "I won't, I'll be right back." And when he came back, you were sitting in his bed, looking at your wrist. "I hate them so much." Carl sat down next to you. "I know Y/N/N but it'll be ok. The fresh cuts show that your only human." You smile as you allow him to bandage your bloodied and bruised wrist. When he was done, he gave your arm a light kiss. You giggled. He smiled and you both lied down. You guys spooned, Carl being the big spoon and you being the lil spoon. Just when you were about to slip into oblivion, Carl gave your cheek a kiss. "I love you always and forever."