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     Felix felt like he was on cloud nine. He's felt like that for the past three months.

   He was actually engaged. He honestly couldn't believe it no matter how many times be said it to himself in the course of these months.

   He was engaged.

   Engaged.

  That word felt so marvellous?

   However, it seemed even with that unknown overwhelming amazing feeling, he was also feeling tense and quite frankly scared.

   He wasn't entirely sure what he was thinking. He was offered to co-write the sequel to Love and he took it, it also meant he had free liberty to influence the relationship between his character and a new character who'd be his character's boyfriend for a period of time.

  He did influence it, just not in a good way.

   Thankfully, even with the role Saeyoung was given he was so sweet, and Felix was grateful for that.

  However, he, himself, couldn't escape his responses to Saeyoung's character, which sometimes extended while not filming.

    Fight, flight, fawn, and freeze.

    The fight response never kicked in, the flight response was rare but there. Fawn and freeze seemed to almost be a constant response.

   He had times in daily life where he'd have small moments of these responses, but they seemed more constant with this role.

    Even his nightmares got worse.

   Which led to nights like right now.

    Felix had his legs pulled to his chest and his head resting on his knees, as he sat in the bay window in his small library.

   "Love, what are you doing up?" Hyunjin asked with a small yawn.

  "Nightmare," was all Felix muttered.

   Hyunjin sat in the bay window with Felix, he went to hold Felix's hand but Felix pulled away.

  There was a distant look in the younger's eyes, that Hyunjin knew too well these days.

   "Do you want to talk about it with me?"

   Felix pursed his lips.

   "I'm…I'm not sure if I am ready for you to know…yet." Felix whispered.

   Hyunjin nodded.

   "I wish it never happened though." Felix said.

   The older listened not daring to say a word, just wanting Felix to open up about it a little.

   "It lasted till I was fifteen... A whole year. Jake doesn't know much since he was five, he just knows I was going through something really bad and I was hurting a lot.

   It didn't help that I moved out as well. Rachel was mad and Olivia understood more than Jake did because she was around eleven when it started..."

   Felix took a breath.

  "After it all went down... I moved in with my older sister because my parents didn't want me to move back in... It took me a year to feel normal again. I didn't even know but Jisung was going through a similar thing, I only found out when we turned seventeen.

   Sometime last year or maybe two years ago, Jisung found Minho and was able to process more of the tramua. He always told me it would take more time for me because I went through worse...but I don't know if that is even true... Six years should be enough time."

  Hyunjin could only speculate on what Felix was talking about and all his theories he hated.

  "Sometimes it just does take longer angel... But I'll be here for you no matter what."

  Felix held Hyunjin's hand.

   "Most of the scars are easy to cover with make up, but there's one that is practically impossible to hide." Felix said.

   Very few people knew of the scar.

   Hyunjin was surprised when his fingertips came in contact with a raised part of Felix's abdomen.

    He knew the younger had a issue with Hyunjin touching this area and know he knew why.

  His fingertips ran over the scar softly. Where the scar was depending on how deep whatever cut Felix went, it was a life threatening injury.

    "Felix..."

    Felix shook his head.

  "I felt like you deserved to at least know about it, even if it is disgusting."

   Hyunjin pulled his hand away and held Felix's hands.

  "It isn't and if someone told you that, they are wrong. It shows that something really serious happened to you and you made it through."

   Felix's eyes widened, he had never thought of it like that, because of the circumstances of it.

   He loved Hyunjin so much.