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    "Is something up? You've been really giddy lately." Jisung asked.

  Felix pursed his lips.

   "Uh, yeah, I just have been in a good mood." Felix said.

   "Oh, yeah? Do I get to know why?"

    "Uhm, actually I want to talk to you about that."

   Jisung tilted his head.

  "In a few months, maybe around the time of the press tour, I am going to make an announcement and I just really want- no need you to not be upset when it gets announced." Felix said.

   "Okay, but why would I be upset about it?" Jisung asked.

   "Because it is something I've been hiding for a very long time."

    "I mean I hid dating Minho for four months."

   Felix pursed his lips and nodded.

   ~

    "Long day..." Hyunjin sighed.

   "Yes, very long one..." Felix muttered sitting in Hyunjin's lap.

   "You were great though." Hyunjin mentioned.

  "You did better."

  Hyunjin leaned up and kissed Felix.

    "I think the makeup artist did the best. Those scars and stuff looked real." Hyunjin said moving Felix off his lap to get a drink for them.

   Felix looked at his hands.

    "Actually, hyunnie I need to talk to you about the movie in general." Felix said.

   "What about it angel?"

   "Uhm, I am a co-writer for it."

   "That's amazing love. Why didn't you tell me sooner we could have done dinner or something." Hyunjin stated.

   "Hyunjin there is more." Felix said.

    Now Hyunjin was getting slightly worried.

   "Okay..."

   "The relationship is a real one I went through, that year I talked about... The relationship in the movie is based on it..."

   Hyunjin tensed and nodded.

    "The, uhm... Scars and cuts... Are real..."

   "What?" Hyunjin questioned.

  Felix looked at his hands, his eyes welling with tears.

    "They are real. Some are old and others are more recent..."

   Hyunjin pursed his lips.

   "Why... Why didn't you tell me? I'm your fiance, that is usually something you tell your significant other."

    "Hyunjin it isn't that easy. It isn't easy now. This is something I am frustrated with myself about... Telling you, I was absolutely terrified of doing because very few people know and the only one who hasn't been repulsed by it is Jisung. I was terrified that you would be disgusted."

    God, Hyunjin wasn't thinking.

   "I am."

   Felix's heart dropped.

   "Okay... That is fucked up..."

   "Felix, I could have helped you!" Hyunjin stated.

    "Hyunjin, do you thinking that this is fucking easy for me? Don't you think that I just want this to fucking stop? I have been dealing with this for years."

   "Felix, what do you want me to say? That it is fine? It isn't Felix."

    Felix scoffed.

   "I wish I never said yes to our first date."

   That hurt.

   "I wish never met you."

    Felix's tears fell.

    "I wish I never loved you, because maybe just maybe it would have saved me a lot of hurt..." Felix said.

    Hyunjin should have thought before he spoke.

    "I hate you."

     The regret that washed over Hyunjin was overwhelming.

   He should have said sorry, but he didn't.

    Felix nodded and gathered his things.

    "Never would I have thought this would happen. I'm... Sorry for what I said, I am, but I have to go..." Felix said.

      Hyunjin felt so guilty. He said that the love of his life, his best friend.

   When Hyunjin didn't say anything Felix left. However, he froze seeing his ex across the street.

    He wanted to turn around and go back to Hyunjin, but his heart just wouldn't let him so he went to his car and sat in it.

   It took everything in him to turn on his car and leave.

    Hyunjin went on auto pilot. He knew he should've gotten rid of it all when he got sober, but he didn't.

   "I shouldn't do this..." Hyunjin muttered.

    But he just wanted to feel anything but what he was feeling.

    -

   Felix sighed as he entered his house.

   It was cold. Jake was at Heesung's with Niki and Jun and would be back for at least another hour.

   He already texted the younger saying that they got into an argument and that he was home early.

  "It is all just messed up..." Felix whispered to himself.

    He still felt on edge after seeing his ex.

   The words Hyunjin said played back in his head.

    He messed up first, but it still hurt a lot.

   He was so caught up in his thoughts, that when he heard a loud bang, he fell into his glass coffee table.

   -

   "Felix!"