Editing (2022)
Where to start with this post?
This story seems to gain a lot of traction every four years for a month or two, and then its forgotten altogether for three years before the next world cup rolls around again. It's a pattern I noticed four years ago when the world cup in Russia was going on in 2018.
And every four years since I wrote this story back in 2014 I am reminded of the cringe worthy things I wrote back when I was 18/19 years old.
So this year I have decided to do some heavy editing for this story. I owe it to myself, and I owe it to Neymar. (Sorry Neymar, for putting your name in this horrible shit show.)
Plus, I thoroughly enjoy writing and I need a distraction. I currently work two jobs and and my personal life isn't going super well. Without giving too much detail, my love life is shitty. I'm in love with a guy who says he's in love with me, but he's too scared to commit. So we were fighting about it a lot. And every time I would walk away, he'd beg me to stay. It got to the point where I was in a really bad place and I was only staying for him while I was suffering in silence. Because when I left, he said he cried without me.
But anyway, I need a distraction so that I can put some space between us.
I left Wattpad for four long years because of him. Because he was stringing me along and giving me just enough love to stay by his side and never leave. I dropped all my interests and focused on him. I would get anxiety if I didn't know what he was doing or who he was with. I would overthink if we didn't literally talk 24/7. All of this isn't entirely his fault. I let it happen because I loved him, I still do.
But I realize now that it's not healthy and I need time to myself and focus on the things I love doing, and one of those things was writing stories.
I wasn't the best at it, but I gave it my all.
So please bear with me as I give this story a well deserved editing.
Thank you!
Happy Thanksgiving everyone :)
-Clary
