Beginning note ♡:
Melancholy
["melon-call-ee"]
(n) a sense of beauty or serenity in the face of sadness.
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DARREN
I loathe what I've become. I used to be able to hang out with my friends and now I can't even do that. I always felt envy when I look at them and I'm disappointed that I even reached this deep.
Despite my envy for them I still adore them because I have not reached such a low point in my life, such desperation to hate people thinking it'll make me feel better about myself because of my cursed self-esteem.
They don't deserve it, I refuse to make people feel bad all because of my enduring it will not change anything, I just never had the heart to do it.
I started eating less because I feel chubby; fat almost.
I've grown to be obsessed with not gaining weight because I don't like how my body—it looks wrong. It looks sickening. I'm so fucking fat and I barely eat now because I knew that I eat too much anyways. And when I do I throw it up so what's the point? I can only eat a couple of grapes and that's it.
I realized that I need to be alive for NSB since I love them too much to the point to go, I love them so much and I am overall afraid to leave them. But I know deep in their minds I am foolish and a burden.
It's the whole point of why I still eat.
I never looked as good as the rest of my friends and I'm okay with it. I thought I'll be okay with it, I thought that I could handle it and not tell NSB because I knew I was already a burden until that day...
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Ending note ♡: now this is long, I know but this is only an introduction.
I just want to say that;
I love all of the members particularly Darren as he is my favorite, all of the members of NSB are beautiful and handsome in their ways. So, no. I do not mean ANYTHING I say in this fanfiction and neither am I trying to say it's real or fake Because we are all very unaware of how NSB is behind the scenes. I'm just putting together fanfiction because I'm bored tbh and I do not think about Darren's body like this I think he's precious either way.
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Melancholy ♡ (Darren & NSB purely platonic)
AcakDarren is very insecure about his looks because of his other friends and he often compares himself to them, As a result, he has grown distant from his friends, then later skipped meals. The group notices this and wants to help but will the group hel...
