𝒔𝒄𝒂𝒓. ༆ heesun

one

there was always this one thought that lingered around in my head.

'there will be one day in my life where i will meet one person who is unlike any other.'

hah.

it seems as if that day will never come.

so far, all of those people showed me nothing but relentless pain and dishonesty.

especially him.

what did i do to deserve this?

all i've ever done was wish for someone to love me.

i know it sounds troubling than it already sounds like it is.

but once you get used to it, it feels like a daily routine to be hurt.

it's like a hobby!

a hobby that you wish to quit one day.

these scars...
these scars on my face aren't enough to show that i've been through a lot.

some may take it like i'm a fighter and these are my battle scars, some take it like my weakness.

it is my weakness, they're right.

these so called battle scars are my signs of the things i've always wanted to move on from, but it's an agonizing reminder that i'm not worth it.

it's funny, right?

or maybe ironic.

i wanted to forget one of the most painful things of my life but the world just decided to give me a permanent feature to let myself know that, like i said, i'm not deserving of anything.

but to whoever i find in the future, i just wanted to let them know..

i'm not perfect.

i'll annoy you, piss you off.

and i'll say stupid things at times.

but one thing i'll promise you

is that i'll love you.. more than anyone else.

i don't care who you are, what your professions are, if you're a serial killer or even just a random person on the street.

i'll love you.. and i mean it.

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segment 1: a fresh start.

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"jungwon when are you coming back? i can't wait any longer~" the blonde whined into his bed sheets.

"i already told you, on monday! i won't be there on move in day, but for sure i'll be there on the first day of uni." jungwons voice coming from sunoos phones speaker explained. it was currently a cloudy and gloomy saturday in sunoos depressing household.