Rejection!!
One of the biggest fear of my life!
I don't care if someone rejects me just because she/he doesn't like me but I care about rejection if it comes from a person who's important to me.
I'm not beautiful anymore! There was a time when I was one of the most beautiful girls in this family but this PCOD brought devastating effects on my personality. My long hair is not that long and silky anymore. My shiny and flawless skin is now hidden beneath the dull surface which is covered with a few dark spots, occasional breakouts, and one of the most painful things (not physically but emotionally) facial hair. Isn't it enough that weight gain took away my perfect figure?
This appearance of mine is enough to break down my confidence. When new people see me they often tell my mom that her daughter is beautiful but when the people who have been already knowing me come across they often ask... What happened to me?
When I look at myself in the mirror I don't like my face, because I want to see my old self in the place of this girl. Every time I question my appearance my heart asks a few questions...
If I'm unable to accept myself in this condition how will that person, who's selected by my parents, accept me?
How will that person, who hasn't seen me yet in real life, react after seeing me?
What if I'll fall flat on his scale of beauty?
I will not be able to tolerate that!
I'm afraid of rejection that's why I don't even want to come to the list of shortlisted.
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Author's note:
Nothing impressive. I know...
It's just....
Leave it!
Bye bye...
_Naaz Jamal
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