Ill Save You All

chapter 4

I don't know what shifted in me within the 5 minutes of processing everything after waking up , but all i felt was pure rage . I was angry , angry that I couldn't save him , I felt useless.  Never again. 

All I did was sit there,pictures flashing through my head everytime I blinked.  " roxy if there's anything we can do.." I stopped dyl from finishing his sentence . " please just.. don't ok I'll be fine " I say .

I rip the iv out of my arm and got up. " woah roxy what are you.. " dev started to say. " I just wanna go home . I don't wanna be here and Im not staying " I say kinda rudly. Fuck .I didn't mean to .  I'm sorry.

Wyl stood up , " OK roxy , we will get you home just try and relax a bit ok. I'll go talk to the doctors and tell them your ok to go home" . " boys can you leave for a minute so I can get dressed " I say pointing at the bag of clothes beside my bed. They all just nod and leave .

Just a simple outfit , black leggings with a black sports bra. I get dressed then open the door just to be met with wyl. " so good news , they where actually gonna release you tonight , so your good to go. " I smile and hug him . " let's get out of here then " I say to him.

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The next couple months where hell. Everytime i close my eyes , I saw stiles , on the ground,  lifeless , me usless. M holding him as I got drenched in his blood, me kissing his lifeless body for the last time befor I blacked out.

I haven't really talked to anyone, it was short convos but then I would dissappear. I started training everyday ,to get stronger , it was rough.

Today was another bad day. I was sparing with this innocent person , but I let my rage take over once again . Fuck I hated doing this. I had her in an arm bar , she kept on tapping,  I was hurting her ,and wouldn't let go. " hey hey hey! Break it up roxy" the trainer came and pulled me off of her.

I got up and got in his face. Rage written all over me " your done for the day get out " he said to me . I walk over to the bench to grab my bad. " have a great fucking day " I say I open the door and slam it shut.

When I got home I walked past everyone and went downstairs to my office . Noone was aloud in here . This was my "special" work place . there was a desk with three monitors . I sat down and got to work .

I have been trying to find these fucks who murdered stiles for the past month. I want them dead , and I want to do it.

" have you pinned a location on those  pieces of shit yet" I type out to the computer.  " ruby, you cannot rush this , they are hard to find . They definitely know what there doing , HENCE why they got away with the attack." My assistant typed back to me. " we will let you know as soon as I get something , we are close "

I push myself back from the table,  get up and punch the wall. Oops , there's another hole I need to cover up. Fucking bitch needs to work faster . Sorry I love you but I'm getting impatient

" just hurry up please " I type back then shut everything off. I head back up to my room to take a shower and relax a bit. After I was don't getting dressed I started scrolling through pictures on my phone. I did this alot.

I put on a playlist that has songs that remind me of my loves ones . A few songs go by. I'm scrolling through some goofy pics of me and the boys making funny faces, me and stiles shoving food in each other's mouths , then a song comes on . Our song . The song I would have been walking down the isle to.

*flashback *
" I think this song is perfect " I smile as I gaze into his beautiful blue eyes and run my hand through is hair. " it's perfect darling " he says as he kisses me passionately
*flashback over*

I put my hands on my lips remembering that night. Then I scroll up and see some photos I never deleted. I didn't want to. Him down on 1 knee , him kissing me after I said " yes", us cuddling in bed and me passed out on his chest, My fingers tracing his tattoos. I let a tear slip from my eyes. I missed him , I wish I never had to leave .

I heard a knock at my door. " come in " I say as i wipe my remaining tears from my eyes and close my phone.

It's dev. " is everything alright ? I heard a big bang downstairs but I wanted to give you some space before I asked" he said in a slight whisper.  " yea I'm fine, just dropped a vase " i say with a light smile. a lie. I really don't like lying to them but I had to . I couldn't tell them . I swore myself to secrecy.

He walks over to give me a hug ,kissed my head and left the room . I walked over to my punching bad to relieve some pent up stress that was taking over my body. He cares and wants to make sure I'm ok. Same thing for me , I will protect you boys for the rest of my life.

You see ive never told them why I dissappear so much, why I demanded my own office for work and why Noone is aloud in there. After everything happened , I did some digging about becoming a legal assassin . Yes legal . I work for the government now protecting people and more importantly the people I love. My assassin name is ruby. My gemstone , fits perfect .

I did let them know I will take any job BUT I mostly want to protect my family, friends and loved ones and they where ok with that. I'm good at what I do so they dont Complain ever. Im a good shot too, never miss .

I leave my room because I forgot to tell dev something ,something he needed to hear. I knock and he tells me to come in. " hey dev?" I say. " yes roxy?" He says with a smile . " thank you ,for understanding me " I smile and walk out.

I hate that I've become so angry, but I just had to remember , im doing this for them. I can't be distracted by emotions . I needed to lock in , focus.

I looked down at , my hands and they where bleeding from hitting the bag. I went and washed up , cleaned my cuts and bandaged them . I felt no pain in them anymore , I built a tolerance. 

The next 2 days has been me screaming at my assistant . " GOD DAMN IT PEYTON CAN YOU PLEASE GIVE ME SOME GOOD NEWS " I scream into the phone oops cats out of the bag, she's really good with a computer that's why I hired her, and I trust her. I'm gonna loose it if she doesn't say she's found him yet.

" roxy we got some good news and some bad news... " she says over the phone.

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