THE BOY I CAN'T HAVE

CHAPTER ONE

SEPTEMBER
Woke up by the sound of my alarm, feeling tired, no energy. It suddenly hit me, it is no longer summer and I have school. I tried to crawl back into my bed for five more minutes but thanks to my mother screaming my name I had no choice but to get up and get ready for school.
I put a lot of effort into my look today, I mean who wouldn't for their first day of high school. As I guarantee my stuff I heard my mother yelling my name so I could get downstairs so we could leave. I swear she loves screaming my name for no reason, my name Allisa which stands for "great happiness " but I don't really feel like a great happiness in people's lives or feel happy.
I stepped out of the car and I said goodbye to my mother as she wished me good luck. I was really excited but at the same time I wasn't, I had no friends but that's because I like being alone and sometimes that gets lonely.
I entered my first class and I decided to sit in the back just because. I looked at the door and saw a tall figure brown hair and he was really cute. I realized that I was not the one staring at him, it was the whole class. He made his way to the back and sat by me. I was really nervous because it was the first time I have been so close to a guy this attractive.
The teacher walked in and introduced himself, and just like every first day they make everyone introduce themselves as well. "Liam" he said, I turned around glaring at him confused, "Liam" that my name he repeated, oh I said confused there was a long pause at that moment. "Alissa" that my name. He smiled "your cute" he whispered, I pretended like I didn't hear him.
It was finally lunch time and that was not my favorite part of the day. I walked towards an empty table and I sat there alone. I spotted this girl and she was really pretty and she walked toward my table. She sat close to me, "hi" she said, "hi" i replied.
Honestly it was very awkward and we spent the whole time quiet. She didn't seem like the type of girl that didn't have a friend, so I was confused as to why she didn't sit with her friend. "Bye" that all I heard, No mane, no nothing, she just left.
It was finally my last class and I was really happy that I finally got to go home. Across the room I noticed the same girl from lunch she was staring at me, I wondered why?.
School was over and I decided to walk home. I had a feeling that someone was following me. I turned around and it was this hot figured man and in that moment I froze. "Can I help you" he ask, I finally came back to my senses as I was going to respond to him he just walked away.
I finally arrived home and all I wanted to do is be in my room. Since it was the first day of school I had no homework which was great. After resting for a couple minutes,I went straight to the basement where everything was. My little ceramic studio, this was a place where I can be alone and in peace. My parents are divorced so most of the time my mom was not there because she was working and my dad got me everything for my studio, after he treated me like shit and chose his girlfriend over us. Honestly I didn't really care because I got what I wanted.
I was exhausted from everything today,so I took a hot shower and changed into my pajamas. As I hoped into my bed I glared at the window and that when I saw Liam the boy from my class today. It didn't seem like he saw me, but I spent the whole night wondering why he lives next door. That night I fell asleep thinking about him.
The next day
In the morning I woke up feeling great, surprisingly. This morning my mom was not here so I made my own breakfast, most of the time she worked overnight. After I took a shower, put my clothes on and did my makeup I decided to head out. As I'm walking towards the school I spot the guy from yesterday and the girl from lunch together, I assume that they were dating.
walked into class. Liam was already sitting down, so just sat down. "Hi Alissa" he said, "hi Liam" I replied. Class ended as I was making my way to the door. He pulled me with my bag, making my face and his face almost connect. "Can I borrow your notes? I fell asleep during class" he said, "sure" I said, then he walked away.
As I'm walking toward my next class I recognized the guy from yesterday again. He was with a bunch of other boys and there was this girl in his arms. I guess he was that popular guy and that as a girlfriend every week. There was this boy screaming his name from across the hall and I found that his name is Ash. Ash is the typical hot Asian guy and Liam was the typical hot white boy.
"Don't look at him, he's bad for business" I heard behind me, it was the girl from lunch. "Hi again" she said, "I'm hana" and that my older brother please don't be like the other girl and have a big crush on him. "I won't" I tell her we both laugh, "let's walk and talk" she said. We found out that we both had a lot of classes together which I didn't even realize.
We both made our way to the lunch room and sat down. We heard everyone whispering and we turned around just to find out that it was only Liam walking in with my notes. I guess a lot of girls kinda had a crush on him now. He handed me the notes and left, he never stayed in the cafeteria, he was always in the library.
The day ended and Hana and I went home together and we lived in a town where everyone was kinda close together and I happen to be close to Hana,Liam and Ash isn't that great.
I got home and on the fridge was a note from mom saying that she was working overnight again and she left money to buy pizza. I went and took a shower and at the window I realized that someone was staring at me and it was Liam. I closed my curtains so fast. Oh my god why was he looking at me, he knows we live next to each other now I was so embarrassed. I heard a knock on my door and it was not the pizza but Liam.
He came in without me even inviting him in, "you know i know your mom right" he said "what" I replied "yeah your mom and my mom are best friend", "how did you know" I asked him, "My mother told me yesterday,should we wait for the pizza" he said.
Liam and I ate the pizza while watching a movie. After the movie I thought he would leave but he stayed even longer, "I'm sorry" Liam apologized, "for what" I asked "for staying here for so long" he said "it no problem" I replied. Liam explained that his parents are fighting again and he wanted to get away, "I understand" I told him.
"Follow me I said, "for what" he asked, "just follow me" I replied. I took him to my little studio, showing him everything. When I want to relax, I come down here and I throw on my wheel. Wow, can I try," he asked, "of course," I replied. I'm sitting on the chair and he's behind me and I'm showing him how to center the clay.
He wanted to make something in the shape of a heart,as we finished his piece of art and when I turned around to look at him, he gently grabbed my face and he kissed me,OMG he kissed,Liam kissed. I kissed him back and we were kissing for the past minute, we probably got clay all over each other but honestly it was worth it. I felt butterflies in my stomach for the first time. He pulled away and he looked at me and left
He left
He left
He left just like that
Honestly I don't know what I did wrong