THE BOY I CAN'T HAVE

Liam pov

could not say that I was excited to be back in this town nor am I excited for the first day of school. As I walked into the class everyone was staring at me but my eyes caught this one girl,she was sitting all the way in the back. I made my way to the back and I sat next to her. She was quite gorgeous with her straightened hair and her dark skin. "Liam" I said to her, she turned and looked at me confused. "Liam that is my name" I repeated to her, she stares at me and says" Alissa that is my name". I don't know the reason but a smile grew on my face, "you're cute" I whispered hoping she wouldn't hear. The day ended and I was already sick and tired of school but the only good thing about today was her.
I entered the doorway but I could already hear my parents fighting again. I hate when they fight they came into this for a new start, I don't know what the point is if they're going to keep fighting. I went into my room and locked my door. I wanted to be in peace but it seems like I can't have that in this house but one thing I could rely on was my drawing. Usually I draw my emotions but today I drew her, I guess she was my emotions today.
The next day
It was already the next day but for some reason I was excited and before I knew it was in school. I walked in class and she was not there, so I just sat down. I was really tired and the next second I saw her walk toward me. "Hi Alissa" I said to her," hi Liam" she responded back to me. I woke up to the sound of the bell,I didn't get any notes down. As she made her way to the door I pulled her by her bag and she was so close to my face that I got nervous. "Can I borrow your notes, I feel asleep in class" I told her, "sure" she said. I never went to lunch. I always found myself in the library, reading. That day I went to the cafeteria just to give her her notes back but I honestly just wanted to see her. As I walked in everyone was staring at me once again and there she was with her friend, I walked toward her and handed her note and left. I didn't say much to her, I don't know why I just did.
Finally the day ended and I walked home where I didn't really want to be. As I'm about to go to my room my mother stopped me and said she wanted to talk to me."I know things haven't been easy but I love your dad that's why I'm still with him" she says, "if that's how love is then I don't ever want to experience it" saying to her as I walk out the room. " There a girl next door and her mom and I used to be best friend and how two knew each other as babies" she says out of nowhere, "what girl mother" I asked her, " I don't quite remember but I think her name is Alissa, something like that" she says,'wait Alissa,next door" i asked "yes" she replied.
I went up to my room wondering if my mom was talking about the same Alissa that I knew. I looked out the window and I saw Alissa. After a couple hours my father came home and they started fighting again.I never really knew what their fight was about. I was so tired of hearing them so I just left the house.
I didn't know where I was going,so I went next door. I knocked on the door a couple times and Allisa opened the door I just walked in. After a couple minutes of us talking, we ate pizza while watching a movie.I honestly did not want to leave. I liked being here, so I apologized to her and asked if I could stay a little longer. "It's no problem," she said. I told her that my parents were fighting and she told me to follow her. She showed me her little studio. She said that where she comes when she wants to relax, I was honestly impressed and I asked if I could try "of course" she replied.
I'm sitting behind her and even from this angle she looked gorgeous. She showed me how to center the clay and I wanted to make something in the shape of a heart. After a couple minutes we finished and she looked so happy. She turned and looked at me but I couldn't help it, I gently grabbed her face and kissed her. At that moment it felt like I was on the moon, we got clay all over each other but I didn't really care but I stopped and left. Ever since I never talked to her, we always say hi to each other but that's all.
Over the summer I was with many girls and all I wanted to do was forget about Alissa. I liked her a lot but I didn't like the way she made me feel.I don't want to out like my mother. I didn't want to feel love.
OVER THE YEARS, MY FEELINGS GREW BIGGER AND BIGGER.
FOR THE PAST YEARS I FEEL MADLY IN WITH ALISSA.