The Habits of My heart

Chapter 14

Monica scanned the cobblestone streets for Ronnie and muttered to herself about how men were the trash of the world and dogs were more loyal than a puny man . Her eyes found a broad man speed walking down the east end . " Ronnie Kray!" Monica shouted down at him but Ronnie kept walking .

She sighed and took off her heels and jogged down to where Ronnie was . He stopped to check his watch and dig out a cigarette . He saw Monica sprinting towards him and rolled his eyes following with a deep breath in . " We have to talk," Monica said out of breath .

" We don't have to talk about anything ." Ronnie puffed his cigarette and turned his head to avoid blowing it in her face .

" Okay. We need to talk ." Monica reached in to Ronnie's pocket and pulled out his cigarette case, she stole a fag and placed it between her lips . Ronnie smirked and lit her end with his lighter .

"Monica-"

" Have you been stepping out on me ?"

Ronnie stared off into the distant street watching people and cars bustle by . Ron sworn to himself that he wanted to spend his life with Monica and become the man she deserved . To be that man, it involved honesty and he wanted to give her the answer he knew she was hoping for but it wouldn't be right . " It's complicated," He spoke up .

" It's a yes or a no ." Monica felt her head rush of the most explicit thoughts of worst scenarios causing her head to ache.

" Yes."

" You bastard...." Monica backed away from him shaking her head . " I never want to see you again!"

" Monica, it's complicated though . It's not what you are thinking ."

" How would you know what I'm thinking? Cheating is cheating regardless . The fact you think you can justify this to me is .....absurd!"

" It was before I fell in love with you, dove . It was before we knew for sure that we wanted to be together ."

Monica stopped backing away and stood her ground crossing her arms . She opened her mouth to speak but Ronnie took a step forward, a blank expression on his face . " Let's not forget about you and Reggie."

" Me and Reggie never did anything and we're just friends!"

" You're so defensive when we talk about him and it just shows that there is something between you too. I see the way he looks at you and how you look at him ."

" You slept with other people , Ronnie . I never did ."

" But you wanted too. I'm sure you thought about it a lot actually . When you're alone in bed at night when we were fighting," Ronnie came closer and tilted her chin upwards to look at him . " You thought about my brother fucking you."

Monica was silent . Her throat tightened and she felt a warm sensation in the pit of her stomach . For some reason, hearing Ronnie talk about his twin fucking her turned her on . She knew he was doing it on purpose and didn't want to give him the satisfaction. " Never . You're disgusting and twisted . You might want to go get tested because I know your type of boys, they're nasty ." Monica turned and walked away with her heels still in hand .

—————————————————————
Ronnie went back to the club and made a bee line towards the office where he knew his twin would still be . Reggie was jotting down on some papers and looked up as Ronnie stood before him with a unfamiliar demeanor—defeated. " Ron?"

" I know why you told Monica ." Ron narrowed his eyes while propping both arms on the desk and leaning towards his brother . " You want to fuck her."

" Did you take your tablets , Ron? Because you sound fucking nuts !" Reggie laughed in disbelief.

" Don't you act sheepish with me you cunt ."

" Alright, yeah? I want to fuck your Monica . Whatever helps you sleep at night ,mate."

Ron stared at his brother in deep thought and then he smiled . " I'm in love with her . I'm going to make a deal with you."

" Alright."

" I'm going to propose to her, Reg. I'm in love with her and I want her to be mine for the rest of our lives . But, I'm going to give you the chance to fuck her before I propose; that way you can get what ever fantasy in your head out of your system ."

This offer winded Reggie up and not in the way Ronnie expected. He shot up from his seat and leaned into Ronnie's face, " You don't love her . If you loved her then you wouldn't  pimp her out to your own brother ."

" We've shared everything since we were lads . Toys, clothes, food, and we've even shared girls or have you forgotten that?" Ronnie smirked .

" We were teenagers and that was meaningless because those girls were meaningless to us. Monica is different and so was Frances." Reggie whispered her name .

" You like Monica because she reminds you of Frances. You've been different since her passing which is why I want to do this . Kill two birds with one stone . You both can get your infatuation with each other out of the way so Monica and I can be together ."

" Wait..." Reggie gave a small smile . " She feels the same about me?"

" Uh..Sexually yeah ."

" You better hope so because otherwise you'll have competition." Reggie winked .

" Don't make me regret this ." Ronnie said before leaving the office . " Though I already do," Ronnie said to himself .
—————————————————————