Dark Dream || An E'Last Fanfic

DAY 19

DAY 19

Date: Feb 21

Emotion: Nervous...

Dear diary,

Romin is okay.

Thank the heavens for that, because I don't know what I'd do if he wasn't okay. He's a little bit shaken, and that's understandable. Because of that, I won't be seeing him today. I'm giving him his space, and the time to recover emotionally from what happened. Thankfully, he's not really injured, so there isn't much to recover from physically. The only exceptions to that are the scrapes across both of his knees, and the road rash on his hands.

Those are from me pushing him.

But I had to, because if I didn't...

Something much worse could have happened...

I don't want to think about what almost happened. I saved him, it's okay. He's okay.

I was even just texting him, asking about how he was feeling. His responses to my messages mean he's okay.

Still, my chest is pounding from thinking about it. My hands are sweaty enough that the pen keeps slipping from my grasp, my breath coming out in quick pants. What if I hadn't been there? What if I hadn't pushed him? What if I had been even a second too late?

What if Romin wasn't okay?

I bet Worm would be devastated if something had happened. He'd probably blame me for everything. I don't think he'd be willing to talk to me again, and honestly, I wouldn't blame him. If the tables were turned, I'd already be forgetting Worm's name.

Not that I really remember it in the first place, aside from the nickname I call him instead. All I know is that his real name is just as weird as "Worm" is. Fitting, if you ask me.

I send a text to Romin telling him that I'm glad he's okay. I stare at my phone in anticipation while he responds, almost as if I won't believe that he's okay until I can see it with my own eyes, which is completely ridiculous.

Of course he's fine.

I was there yesterday.

I know.

And him being okay means there's nothing to blame me for, nothing Worm, or even The Man, for that manner, would be upset with me over. I've never seen Worm upset, but I don't like to see it coming from The Man.

He's scary when he's upset with me.

I don't want to see that again...

I'm getting off topic. I'm supposed to be writing about how I feel about Romin.

I'm still nervous from the whole situation. It had me on edge, and it still does. But I don't think it will take long for me to recover from my anxious stupor. Because, after all...

He's fine.

I did nothing wrong.

Signed,

Me.