Dark Dream || An E'Last Fanfic

DAY 20

DAY 20

Date: Feb. 22

Emotion: Relief

Dear diary,

I'm sick of this project.

I'm sick of The Man expecting so much out of me.

I don't even know why I'm doing this in the first place. The Man never gave me an explanation, just the assignment in the first place. But writing in this stupid book every day for the past twenty days has been nothing but annoying. It's a chore, something I have to do just because The Man said so. I'm debating not seeing him anymore. Nothing good comes out of seeing him, anyways.

But I'm filling in this page because it's the last one I'll ever have to do.

No more writing the date.

No more explaining how I "feel."

No more words.

And no more hearing from me.

I'm relieved to finally get it over with. I hope The Man will be pleased with what I wrote for him, because I really tried with this assignment. I don't know what he expected from this all, but I hope that this is it. After all, I've been honest in these pages. Transparent, even.

The Man is usually pleased when I'm honest with him.

I'm supposed to be seeing him soon, so I guess I don't have much time to write here. But this book looks so.. Empty. Even with all my drawings, all my words about my days, it's not even half full. I should find another use for it, because this whole thing seems like a waste.

What was The Man even thinking, anyways? That he was going to find out something about me that he doesn't already know by reading some diary? That maybe he'd finally declare me as a good person, and would stop looking at me through such harsh eyes? It could be the opposite too, that he'll hate me even more than he already does, and I'll dread going to see him even further. Or maybe he wanted to know who I'm close to, because he never really listens when I talk about my friends.

He's always been jealous of my friends, anyways.

Especially of Romin.

Speaking of Romin, I think I'll go see him once I finish with The Man. He'll be so excited once I tell him that the assignment is over, that I did it. I can imagine the way he'll smile. He'll probably tell Worm, and Worm will be excited to, but I don't care to see him as much as I do to see Romin.

Romin and I will probably have a celebration over it all.

I can't wait.

And I can't believe that this is it, that this is the last day I'll have to write in this book. It looks a little worn around the edges by now. Maybe it's a good thing that I won't have any days left with it.

All I have to do now is return it to The Man.

He wants to know how I feel? I'm relieved. I'm over this entire project, and glad that I won't have to do it anymore. I'm upset that he gave it to me in the first place. I haven't enjoyed this.

I hope he's happy.

Signed,

Me.