Why am I so worthless (Doraemon fanfic)

Even you think so

Nobita's Pov:
Well, my day is ruined now ig.
Now, as always let's ask for a gadget from my racoon friend.
(*Doraemon be like: I ain't racoon 🤬)
As I open the door, I find an empty room with the same desk which hasn't been used for studying at all with a drawer which has the same old model of time machine in it. As the cherry on the top I see a messed up room, with comics spread out on floor.
Well looks like that cat isn't home right now.
I take off my heavy black bag of my shoulders. Unsurprisingly, I have more books less knowledge, more time less dedication, more opportunities but less skills.

It has sure been a tiring day. Everyday is laborious, it really grinds me down. Listening to taunts of teacher, facing the hypocrisy of human nature, handling the pressure by bullies and suppressing the guilt feelings isn't easy.  I try to sleep to freshen up and then I get labelled with the 'lazy' tag.

Time to go asleep now ig. 😪

In dream:
Why are you so useless Nobita?

Why can't you be like Dekisugi?

Why don't you work hard and bring good marks?

You can't even hit a single homerun in baseball?

Hehe you poor ass, I won't ever take you to my uncle's holiday island.

Nobita, I am sorry but I choose Dekisugi over you.

Nobita, you are so pathetic. You are nothing without my gadgets. I don't think I will be ever able to complete my mission of improving your life and helping you get along with Shizuka. You can just forget about it. Sewashi is a fool to send me here.

I am ashamed to give birth to  a son like you!!

You can only be proficient in girly game like cat's craddle. Hahaha

"No no no no no, you all are wrong, you people don't know a thing about me. Fuck you all, you aren't real people noooo"

Does it make any difference? You are still useless hahaha hahaha haha. Shame on you Nobita! Shame on you Nobita! Shame on you Nobita!!!"

"Noooooo......"

Present time
My breathing becomes erratic as I wake up gasping for breath.
"This has happened quite a few times now."
I mumble to myself.

As my eyes wander around the room, they settle at a certain spot.

Doraemon is back!!!!

All the fatigue that accumulated throughout the day caught up with me. My steady steps became shaky and eyes became misty.
"Doraeeemoooon"
I hugged him as hard as I can .
"Gian bullied me again, mom scolded me and my teacher shouted at Mee wahhh sniff sniff''
The blue cat watched me as if he was already seen this a thousand times.

Third person pov:

"PLEASE LEND ME A GADGET DORAEMON 🥺🥺"
"Nobita, stop crying. You've grown up now."
"But-
"Alright what happened?"

I narrated the series of incidents this morning

I looked at him in the eyes after narrating my story.
He just kept staring at me.
Although he didn't say anything, but I could still feel the disappointment and disgust behind that stare.

"Nobita"
"Yes"
"Why do you always get bullied?"

The cold undertone of that voice ...
I flinches as I heard the chilling voice. "You are weak, so much fucking weak"
He has never talked to me like this before. He he also thinks that I am weak, I am useless.
"SO NOW WHAT? YOU WANT GADGET HUH"
He scolded me as he throwed the airgun at my face.
"Take this and get out of here"
I caught it and opened the room door while crying.

So even you think of me like that Doraemon?
Were these your true feelings about me?