Waiting For His Yes

Waiting For His Proposal

3 days later

Arthit was preparing a lavish meal for their dinner. Today it was going to be special so he put extra efforts in making everything as per Kongpob's palate. He has been planning for this date for three days and he wants it to be perfect.

Once everything is set to his content, he texts Kongpob. He had asked Kongpob to come over for a dinner and had mentioned not to arrive till he texts him.

Half an hour later, Arthit opens the door to a surprised Kongpob. The decoration, table setting, the ambiance, everything suggested what Arthit was planning and Kongpob was genuinely taken aback.

Arthit excitedly makes Kongpob sit before taking a seat next to him.

As Kongpob looks over his favourite dishes, he happily kisses Arthit before digging in. Arthit laughs and starts eating himself.

They talk about various things but not about the whole set up of tonight's date. Kongpob doesn't pry and Arthit is waiting to be done with the food first. Their easy conversation makes Kongpob feel good. It reminds him strongly that they are still in love and equally committed. Marriage or no marriage.

Just as that thought crosses his mind, Arthit pushes their empty dishes away before kneeling in front of Kongpob. Even though he had an inkling to where the night was going, Kongpob was still shocked. More so after hearing Arthit's words.

"Kongpob... I am sorry that in the past I avoided the subject of our marriage. I can't explain you the reason right now but I will soon. But I promise you, that behavior, it's all in the past. I want to marry you. So I would like to ask you that... will you marry me?" Arthit's eyes were shinning with unshed tears but there was a resolute look on his face.

"Ask me again."

"Huh? What ---"

"Ask me again when you really want to marry me."

"Kongpob... I... Why would you think ---"

"You started your proposal with an apology instead of declaring your endless love for me."

"Ok so my proposal sucks but I love you and I ---"

"I don't doubt your love, Arthit. Never did. I just get anxious when you avoid the topic of our marriage and don't share with me why."

"I was right. You got drunk that night because of me."

"And I am assuming that is the reason of your proposal."

"I..." Arthit sits back on the chair. He nods but rushes to clarify. "Yes, I realised unfortunately too late that I was hurting you so much with my silence and avoidance of our wedding topic. I'll explain the reason later but the point is that it is not the only reason for this proposal. I do intend to marry you. Heck we already live like a married couple most of the days. And I love that feeling. So I am ---"

"You are rushing our wedding instead of waiting like you originally wished, like you really wanted because of some reason that I like a coward never asked. Did I get that right?"

"Not the coward part but the rest yes. You trusted me Kongpob instead of questioning me or my love. You waited for me to accept your proposal. That's not cowardice, Kongpob, that's love. And I am grateful to you about it."

Kongpob takes Arthit's hands in his, giving them a reassuring squeeze. "Then be grateful and don't explain me your reasons. I don't want to know anything anymore ---"

"But ---"

"Shh. Listen to me carefully, Arthit. We will only marry when we both want that. And you are right about the fact that either way we are already living like a married couple. The rest is just legalities and technicalities about which I don't care anymore. You are mine, heart, body and soul, just like I am yours. So here's what going to happen next. From now on, I will wait for your proposal. You do that only when you want it. Ok?"

"Are... Are you sure? Will you be fine waiting even it takes years?"

"Yes. I will be fine. So do we have a deal?"

"I love you. Only you, Kong." Arthit could only hug the other man for being the perfect lover he is lucky to have.

"I love you too, Arthit." Kongpob hugged back, feeling a different sense of peace within.

Kongpob doesn't know what happened 3 days ago. He had been waiting for a chance to ask Arthit whether the reason was what he saw in his supposed dream.

When Arthit asked him on a date and at home, he knew Arthit wanted to talk about something important. He wondered maybe Arthit also experienced some weird dream and is taking steps accordingly.

The moment he stepped in the house he knew that what Arthit wanted to talk was something good and romantic and not the bad kind of serious talk. As he heard the proposal, Kongpob figured this wasn't the right thing to do. And he was proven right about that.

But most of all, Kongpob genuinely didn't care about their wedding anymore. Arthit's tonight's actions were the answers that he needed and he was fine with them. Whatever strong reason Arthit has, in the end, Arthit did choose him too, prioritised his feelings too and was ready to marry him. 

This knowledge and feeling help him being fine waiting for Arthit to ask him again later.

All's good and everyone is happy. They are still in love and committed to each other. That's all he needs.

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