Scattered

Stuck

11/30/22
I remember this day
Damn near every detail
This new person came into my life
And I've never been happier

Exactly 1 year ago
I thought
damn I think I like this girl
Over the next couple of days I fell for them
I admired them
I started seeing how amazing we could be together

I ended up dating them
Dec 14th is when it became official
And Ive never made a better decision

Over the months we've struggled
I mean it was my first relationship :/
And it was long distance
420+ miles apart

Feb 6th, 11th, 23rd
April 6/7th
July 25th
And now November 27th
All the days where we had horrible arguments or broke up
We've worked through all those issues I'm just scared for this one

I tried, they tried
Ts is just so fucking hard
How are we supposed to keep it together when both of us are starting to fall apart ?

I don't want this to be over
I've searched for solutions
I'm just hoping they can see what I see

I see us going out to the movies on ft
I see us preparing to link again
I see gift baskets
I see promise rings
I see small activities
I see those cute talks that last until 3 am
I see our parents officially meeting
I see park dates
I see the romance coming back
I see the closeness coming back

Fuck I see so much
I feel so much
I just wanna know if they see it too
I know they care but do they see what I see?
Can we make this work?
Can we find the time?

-4

(My thoughts are so scattered as you can tell. I'm just trynna keep it together since I'm in public BUT I WANNA CRY AGAIN🙂)