The Little Succubus

🥀Chapter 17🥀

Diana's POV.

He turned his head to the side before continuing to talk to me. Coward, can't even look me in the eyes when he talks to me.. "No, I'm not you were nothing but a practice buddy, a toy if you will.. practice for something that'll never happen, I hate littles, they're spoiled brats and nothing more." My eyes widened and the tears in my eyes started to slide down my face as I began to say
"Y-you don't m-mean that.. y-you're l-lying.." I started to choke on my words and a few hiccups made their way out, past my lips.
"I do. I hate children and I hate peoples that act like them. Now why don't you run off and go cry about it to a dom who cares." I took a step back looking at him waiting for him to tell me it's just a really fucked up joke but it never happened..

I turned around and ran back to the school as tears now streamed their way down my face. I forgot about the gate and let my wings out for a brief second so I could fly over the gate. Once I was on the ground and ran in and didn't stop till I hit Emily's chest. "Whoa there slow down a little- omg hey are you ok?" I tried to speak but the words just got stuck in my throat and I began sobbing in her arms. She gave me a hug and rubbed my back as I buried my head in her neck.

She took me back to our dorm where I just laid on my bed and cried my eyes out for a good hour or two. Once I calmed down a little I start to speak "I-I really thought h-he was my f-friend.." I sniffled out, my voice still shaky and Emily rubbed my back.
"I know you did, but you still have me" she smiled and gave me a gentle smile. I slightly smiled back, raised my hand up, and pat her head.
"Yeah, I guess I can always count on the kitty to be here for me.."
"You guess???" She asked and faked sounding offended being over dramatic and I let out a small giggle before she spoke again saying "also I'm a fox, not a cat there's a difference and if anything foxes are more dog then cat" she finished with a slight huff which only had me giggling, whipping my eyes, and saying
"kitty!!" She smiled and stared pretending to be a monster to wanted to eat me and tickled my sides, sending me into a fit of laughter and squeals.

"Nu, bad kitty nu tickle!" I yelled out between giggles which got her to stop for a second before she began to tickle me again. Soon she stopped and I looked up at her "emmy, me hungry.." I said pointing to my tummy.
"Hmm, ok how about we go sneak into the school's kitchen and steal some cookies?"
"Yeah!" I yelled out only for her to shush me and make it seem like she was turning it into a game.

We dressed up and quietly sneaked out of our dorm after lights out. I held her hand and we ran to the kitchen. Once we got cookies and some juice we went back to our dorm.

2 days past in the blink of any eye and I've met some new people but there was this one dom in particular that caught my eye. Her name was Sierra but she wasn't a mommy, she was mistress that was more on the sadistic side. With in these few days I found myself going into little space less and less. Only exceptions where when I was alone with Emily or in a little class. After what had happened with Krampus I haven't really felt like I could trust someone like that.

Sierra and I got pretty close and she drew out a side of me I haven't really explored yet her ora alone made that side of me weak and comfortable. I loved that feeling and never wanted to let it go, but it would always get interrupted once her attention was off me and my mind wondered to the thought of having Krampus back. His arms wrapped around me, the way he pet my hair, how safe he made me feel. I didn't really know him for long but his energy really drew me in.

He was never how people described. I didn't see a single bad look in his eyes towards me, even when he left. His eyes where always filled with pain as he walked the halls but when he would look at me or my uncles he looked like any normal person. I would give anything to see that look in his eyes again.

I hate those thoughts. They're just a constant reminder of him and I've been trying to forget him. I know this shit doesn't happen over night but I need him out of my head now. I've been distracting myself with Sierra, friends, one night stands, drinking, getting high, jumping from play partner to play partner, really anything I can but the little in me just keeps asking 'when will he be back' and it hurts.. it's hurts to remember him and replay his parting words over and over again. I know he didn't mean it but those words felt like a knife to the heart. Up until that day I had felt confident in my little space but now it feels like something I have to hide.

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A/N

𝐻𝑖 𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑠 𝑠𝑚𝑎𝑙𝑙 𝑛𝑜𝑡𝑒 𝑖𝑠 𝑗𝑢𝑠𝑡 𝑡𝑜 𝑡𝑒𝑙𝑙 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝐼 𝑤𝑖𝑙𝑙 𝑛𝑜𝑡 𝑏𝑒 𝑢𝑝𝑑𝑎𝑡𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑜𝑛 𝑡ℎ𝑢𝑟𝑠𝑑𝑎𝑦 𝑏𝑒𝑐𝑎𝑢𝑠𝑒 𝐼'𝑚 𝑖𝑛 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑝𝑟𝑜𝑐𝑒𝑠𝑠 𝑜𝑓 𝑔𝑒𝑡𝑡𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑠𝑜𝑚𝑒𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑒𝑙𝑠𝑒 𝑑𝑜𝑛𝑒 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑠 𝑏𝑜𝑜𝑘!
~𝐿𝑜𝑛𝑑𝑜𝑛