I'm ready to face the fact that I MIGHT BE PREGNANT.
She sat down quietly inside Dr. Abad's clinic. Patiently, shes waiting for her blood test result.
Am I ready for this responsibility?
The nurse came in with pieces of paper and handed to the doctor.
Here goes nothing.
"Ms. Andrea, congratulations. You are pregnant...." He informed me.
She held her breathe.
****
Flashback
SMS/inbox/
Fred 12:02am 03/27/08
Happy 2nd anniversary babe. I love you
Me 12:06am 03/27/08
I love you most babe. See you after your shift?
Have a surprise for you.
Fred 12:10am 03/27/08
Huh? What's that?
Me 12:16am 03/27/08
Just drop by here. Surprise is a surprise.
I'm so ready for this. We needed this?
She bit her lip thinking of what could happen for later. It was their 2nd anniversary. Ups and down in a relationship will never be lost, but they are still together. She woke up early in the morning to cook her famous pancakes and bacons.
Her heart was pacing fast. She knows this can be the day she can give herself to him.
To love is to surrender all bodily fantasies.
To feel the warms skin and connection that only two lovers can share
A passionate moment.
She claimed to be a goddess today. She prepared every inch of this moment. Scared and thrilled at the same.
She took the longest bath ever in her life. She shaved every pubic hair that she can see. She stared at herself for once in front of the mirror-naked.
I know, something is wrong. But it feels so right.
She reminded herself.
****
"We will be performing an vaginal ultrasound next month...."
The doctor snapped her back to reality. She was scared and blessed. It was both a gift and a curse. She always dreamt of being a mom, but not this way. Her dream of filling her own home with a complete and happy family. Will she be able to pull this one off?
"Okay doc, noted." She responded with a heavy heart.
She left the clinic and roamed Makati like a dead zombie.
Is this really happening?
Could this be a sign that we should have been together?
Or a punishment from all the bad decision I had made?
What will happen to me? To us?
What will my parents tell me?
My studies? How can I do this?
Finally, she broke down. She haven't notice she was inside a church. She prayed really hard. If hoped that someone from the heavens can give her the answers she was looking for. For the first time I her life, she was alone. She cried.
Lord,
I am not a worthy person to receive this beautiful blessing. I'm scared that I may not be able to give this angel a home it deserve. Guide and teach me the path of your light. Give me the strength and will to overcome this heavy burden in my heart.
Thank you.
Amen.
At last, she felt peace from all the pain she felt. She too her phone and called him.
With every ring hear heart got heavy.
"I hope your not busy. We need to talk. Let's meet at the park later this evening. Its urgent...."
She held her breathe, waiting for a conformation.
"Thank you. See you..."
She hung up and closed her eyes. She started to wait till the time comes to see him again.
