Adventures with Noia

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TW-Sensitive topics such as SH
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Stupid
Useless
Piece of shit
Good for nothing
Little
Tiny
Small
So small
So small that I don't even matter
Stupid
Stupid
Stupid
You're fine
Stop being dramatic
YouarefineyouarefineyouarefineyouarefineyouarefineyouarefindyouYouarefineyouarefineyouarefineyouarefineyouarefineyouarefindyouYouarefineyouarefineyouarefineyouarefineyouarefineyouarefindyouYouarefineyouarefineyouarefineyouarefineyouarefineyouarefindyouYouarefineyouarefineyouarefineyouarefineyouarefineyouarefindyouYouarefineyouarefineyouarefineyouarefineyouarefineyouarefindyouYouarefineyouarefineyouarefineyouarefineyouarefineyouarefindyouarefine
"IM NOT FINE!" I yell as I my fist rams into the mirror.
I feel the warm blood run down my knuckles
"Shitshitshitshitshitshitshitshitshitshitshitshitshitshitshitshit" I feel my self stubble back and fall down,I just pull my knees up to my chest.I want to cry but all my tears have gone dry
"You'll be fine,you can do this,you're stupid and stubborn,you won't leave them" I mumble to myself "Don't bother them...they have their own problems" I lay my head down and let the thoughts drown me out
Let me be numb
Let me be light
I look up and look at myself in the cracked mirror
"I look like shit" My voice cracks and sounds pitchy,my hair has grown out again I can barley see through my bangs,my arms are cover in red dark muddy red I sigh and get up
"Fix yourself up for Aka and Nara" I tell myself "don't let them know" I grab the glass and stuff it under some papers,I grab the broken mirror and stuff it in my closet and clean up the shards. I reach under the bed and grab my care kit, I clean up the blood,it stings but it's alright,I deserve the pain. I put on a long sleeve and put on a head band to get my bangs out of the way. My eye lids felt heavy and I walk out of my room and find Aka,I missed them..."I promise I won't let you get hurt again Amor" I mumble as I go up to them and wrap my arms around their chest and lay my head on their shoulder "It's not that hard.."

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Sorry it's kinda short,I'm sick and tired and have been dealing with school stuff
Hope you enjoyed!<3