My First Diary [Skephalo]

My First and Last Day

The first day of sixth grade, the building was huge. The school colours were on the walls. the lockers that filled the never ending halls of the huge building. The colours were red and white. My locker was across from Georges, And right next to Karl's. Me and George got seven classes together, one class we don't and that's first hour, there's hours in middle school, for  Each class, they tell us to be perfect, to behave, and that someone is always watching our every move, don't make bad choices. It's all so stressful, and I haven't even gotten any work. It's still only the first day. After words me and George stood at the lockers, he was struggling to open his, I leaned on the locker next to him. Just admiring his hair and his voice. He was putting his stuff in it getting it organized. He finished and closed his locker. He closes it, I grab his chin, force his face to look at mine, and look in his eyes. His eyes look at my lips, I get close to his face. His lips touch mine. His lips soft, and smooth. They slide together, perfectly. My face gets hot and I feel his. I open my eyes, are lips separate, are eyes meet. "I love you." His eye look worried, or confused.
"I don't- you- not like this."
He tries to turn his head, I stop him. "Do you love me, too?"
"I don't like you, not like this." His face red and his eyes are telling me he doesn't feel the same. I take my hand off, sand up straight, and look him in the eyes,"I'm- sorry- if I, made you uncomfortable." He touched his lips lightly with his hand. He looks away from me. "George, I didn't mean to-"
"It's fine, Pandas."
"It- is?" He hid his eyes from behind his hair. "Can we not, talk about it." He walked off, to the door. I saw Skeppys  car out side. I walked behind George. We sat nex to each other in silence. I felt like an idiot, why did I kiss him.
God, I'm stupid. He couldn't even look me in my eye. Dammit, I fucked up, I don't even care anymore, I was sorry for George. I bet Skeppy knew that the atmosphere was thick.
"You guys are quite for once." Skeppy was an idiot,"Jeez, who died?" George looked out the window, I was angry, angry at myself for being so, fucking stupid. When we got home I went to my room without saying a word. I want to turn back time. I wish I never did it in the first place. I wish I never fell in love, with anyone ever. Dad comes in my room, "Sap? Do you want to talk?"
"I guess." Dad closes the door and sits next ot me on my bed,"What do you need, to talk about?" I think for a minute,"ugh, nevermind, its dumb."
"No, come on, Sap, I can help you."
"Its, kinda embarrassing."
"I wont tell anyone, Sap, I promise." How do I tell my dad I kissed my best friend, confessed my love, and now I think he hates me. I really don't know what I should say,"so- um."
"If you don't want to, you don't have to."
"I don't know how to tell you. I did a stupid thing and now I'm screwed." I put my hand over my face. "Sapnap, you didn't do anything bad, did you?"
Yes! I fucking kissed my best friend!  I want to say a whole bunch of things. I don't I stay quite. "I'm not going to judge you, if it embarrassing, Sap, I had a lot of embarrassing things happen to me."
"Well, i- kinda, sorta, Kissed someone, and they don't like me back, and its, really awkward between us."
Dad looked at me,"Wa- was it May?"
"May moved, Dad."
"Who was it?"
"It doesn't matter! He hates me!"
"Sap, its okay, he- doesn't hate you."
"What do you mean, he doesn't hate me? How would you know?"
"I don't know Sap, I don't know how to help. It never really happens, you would normally ask to, kiss someone."
"Well, I didn't, you wanna know why? Because I'm fucking stupid!"
"Sapnap, language!" Dad stood up so did I, we stood, I was angry taking it out on Dad,"Sapnap, your not stupid, don't say that."
"I showed you how stupid I am, and your showing me on how much of a goddamn lier you are!"
"Sapnap!" Dad stood, he looked angry.
"Fuck you, Dad! Fuck you and your stupid fucking lies!" Skeppy  came running into the room,"What's wrong?" "Its fine, Skeppy." Dad stepped back to the door. I realized he was backing away from my flames. The feeling of Dad and Skeppy being scared of me, hurt deep in my chest. I had tears in my eyes, seeing Dad reach for the door, pushing Skeepy out. My fire hit Dads arm causing him to bleed,"Dad I-  didn't mean-" Dad fell on the floor holding his arm, blood hits the floor. Skeppy gets down, opening the door, helping Dad. I felt like an idiot, but way worse. My fire surrounded, hiding me. My fire fell down as I sat in the corner of my room my head in my knees. My room empty with fire marks and Dads blood. I stay in my room, door closed, crying, I didn't mean anything I said, not a single word. I didn't mean to hurt Dad, I never wanted that. Skeppy came in my room, and sat next to me in my corner,"Was it your first kiss?" I looked at him he was smiling at me,"Yeah." I looked away,"It was that bad?" He giggled.
"Not really, they just didn't like me back."
"Bad told me it was a guy."
I look at him,"Was it, George?" I shake my head yes. 
"Look man, your still going to be friends, he's comfortable enough to talk to you, and even being around you. You two are friends, you know each other better than anyone. Come on, dinners ready." I look at Skeppy, kinda shocked, he was an child mentally, but now he seems to be, like Dad or something. I wipe the tears off my face and follow Skeppy to the dinning room. Eating, "Dad, I'm sorry." Dad had a bandage around his arm, you could see blood seeping through,"Sap, I know you can't control you fire, but please, watch your language." Dad looked at my with his serious eyes,"Got it."