A taste of freedom

Chapter 51

  Yuugo took a while to bring back food. Not that I minded anyways. Actually food sounds quite revolting right now. He pushed open the door with his foot and brought in a hot bowl of food. I couldn't see what it was exactly. "There wasn't and normal sausage, just sausage gravy. I hope it'll do." I placed a pillow on my lap and then the bowl on the pillow. The food was steaming but you could tell it wasn't just made. He must've got it from somewhere and heated it up on the stove. I stared down at the sausage gravy and my stomach churned. As the smell hits my face I begin gag. Not from the smell actually, from the horrid thoughts it gave me. "You don't need this. You know what you need." As the sentence flew around my brain, so did pictures of my family, laying dead on the ground. My face bloody as I looked over them, a human arm hanging from my mouth.

   I threw up. Luckily I was fast enough to lean over the bed and puke on the floor. Yuugo was sitting towards the foot of the bed so he avoided all of the vomit. "I really thought you'd be able to take at least one bite. Heard from your friends that you used to be a huge foodie." I grimaced at the thought now. I used to love eating. Now I can't even smell food without blowing chunks. Yuugo took the bowl from the pillow and set it on the smal night table next to my bed. I wiped my mouth. "Why are you doing this? Helping me. If it's just because you feel bad for shooting me get over it." I gripped at the white sheet that lay loosely on my legs. I wiped my mouth again with the back of my hand. He grumbled "I don't know kid. Normally I hate people. Especially kids."

I grit my teeth as it donned on me. "I'm not a kid anymore." Yuugo turned and stared at the wall across the room. "You're turning, aren't you?" I leaned up against the pillow and threw my head back. "I don't know what you're talking about." I'm trying to deny the situation. He's right though. As much as I hate to admit it. "Bullshit. You're turning in a demon. You're turning into one of them." "Yeah! Well it's not like I can do anything to stop it!" Yuugo shook his head but kept a hard glare at the wall. "That cyclops told me that if you ever turned and ate a human, he would have to kill you. Said he couldn't live with your death on his hands so he asked me to kill him." I groaned "of course he would say that, he's more suicidal than me."

"Look Yuugo, you and I both know you won't be able to do it so just forget he even said anything. Besides, not eating will kill me before he does." Yuugo gestured to the bowl of food. "There's some right there." I scoffed at him "you know what I need to eat to survive. You also know that I'll never do it. Not of my free will anyways..." I leaned my head back against the wall and let out a few mangled breaths. "I should be dead before they even get back so just tell Ray that I went out looking for Minerva and haven't come back. You can impose that I've died if you must." Yuugo cracked his neck and stood up. "I won't lie and I won't try to stop you from doing anything to off yourself but I at least think you should talk to them before you leave." And with that, Yuugo was gone.

    I was alone in my rooms for three days. That was until Lily and Oliver opened my door. "Ace is awake. He won't talk to anyone so I figured you'd be the person to call." I nodded at the two and stood up. I took a few wobbly steps, seeing as I'd been laying down for a while. I took my time getting to our medical room, contemplating what I would say to Ace when I saw him. Would I apologize for leaving him like that? Probably. How about knocking him out? Probably not. I did what needed to be done. I had unconsciously grabbed Ace's medical file from Lambda and brought it with me. Maybe if I show him this and explain why I didn't want him to see mine he wouldn't be as angry with me.

   I gently knocked on the door but heard no response. Right, he's not talking to anyone. Would he even talk to me? I brushed the thought away and opened the door only just peeking my head in. "Hey Ace, it's me. I came for a visit if you don't mind." His eyes widened but stayed transfixed on the wall ahead of him. He only grunted slightly in response. I pulled up a chair next to his bed as he kept his gaze away from my own. I cleared my throat a little "look Ace, I know what I did was a bit rash but I did what needed to be done. I'm sorry if I've completely lost your trust but it was for our own good." Ace grit his teeth a little and turned to me. Only now did I realize the tears welling up in his eyes. "Really? You call leaving unconscious in the middle of a demon infested forest for our own good? And what does our even mean? Leaving me vulnerable to attack while you went off and played with your other friends?" I leaned back in my chair, gaze cast down.

   I didn't have to guts to do or say anything so I just sat there. "Yeah you lost my trust but when you did that I lost trust in myself." He statement finally made me look up. I looked at his glossy eyes as shimmering tears fell from his face. "I know Y/n. I know you did what you thought was best for me but think about how I feel. Put yourself in my shoes." Ace turned back to the wall but held a tight grip on the bedsheets. "To be knocked out and left in the woods by yourself. I know your stronger than me. I know I'm weak compared to you. But I was only trying to help." I cleared my throat as I felt a lump form in my throat from holding back tears. "I'm sorry."