Homophobe X Heterophobe -A SasuNaru Fanfic-

Chapter 8

Ever since they had their first sleepover at Sasuke's. They both only got closer.

Doing everything together and gaming whenever they were free became the norm.

Dispite being opposites, since they could perfectly relate to each other and their similarities stood out more than their differences, this only helped them get even closer.

Before they even realized it, they had already formed an inseparable bond with each other.

Sasuke knew that he'd always looked up to Naruto and admired him. He came to accept that part of himself naturally along the way. But soon, he stopped thinking about wanting to surpass him or wanting to compete with him. Even though he did start off with thinking about Naruto as an admirable rival, it wasn't long before it stopped being just admiration and before he knew it, he was already feeling something other than the admiration that he'd always felt.

It didn't take long for Sasuke to realize that he may have fallen in love with Naruto. But he himself had no idea why he thought that it was 'love' even though he clearly wasn't attracted to him sexually. It was confusing to say the least. 

If Naruto was also straight or asexual even, he may have ended up confessing, since asexual relationships are a thing - as far as he knew from what little information he'd looked up. And especially because he could tell that Naruto treasures him a lot too. He wasn't dense enough to not even notice how Naruto was just as fond of him as Sasuke is of him.

But... Naruto was capable of being sexually attracted to guys. Especially if it's someone he truly treasures, isn't it only natural to want to show that love physically too? Sasuke understood this, so he couldn't bring himself to confess. After all, it was an unchangeable fact that he was incapable of being attracted to guys. Even though, he really does love him a lot. Naruto was truly special to him. But he would definitely feel repulsed if they were to do anything more than hugging or kissing.

He really did give it a lot of thought.

At first, He thought that he may have just been too attached to his first closest friend but he couldn't deny his feelings of wanting to monopolize him. Could this really be just attachment? He didn't know.

It was only after properly thinking it through, that he decided it was best for either of them if he stops having such intense feelings for the blonde. It was fine, since there was no attraction involved, he believed that he could easily stop himself from being overly attached to him. Or at least that's what he thought.

But the more time they spent together, the more he realized, he just really loved him a lot. He admired him, respected him, trusted him, and really truly loved him so much. He wanted to be someone who'd always be allowed to stay closest to him. He never wanted to leave him side. He felt unusually empty when they don't talk to each other for even just a day. He really just wanted to be with him. Talk to him about anything and everything. Play their favorite games and have sleepovers. Bicker about useless things then laugh together. It was all just things that any close friends would do, but the fact that he ended up thinking he didn't want to share this precious close friend with anyone, made it a little difficult to see it as friendship. Even though he wasn't even capable of being a proper lover who can make him happy. He was just too selfishly attached to him. He was already in love before he realized it.

"Sasuke..?", Naruto's voice brought him back from his dazed thoughts. It became a routine to have a sleepover at either of their houses on every weekend. It wasn't any different today. They were in Sasuke's room, seated on his bed, leaning against the headrest. Just browsing through their phones instead of gaming or talking like usual.

"Hn?", Sasuke made a questioning sound and looked at him, trying not to reveal his feelings that were still in a turmoil.

"Did I do something to upset you, maybe? You've been.. Avoiding me lately, haven't you? It's not like you to keep things to yourself and mull over it, just tell it bluntly like you always do..?", Naruto tried to sound jovial but his anxiousness was clear in his voice.