Ah, the night whether we decided if we wanted to continue what we have or call it quits.
11/25/22 5:00Pm
I crossed your boundaries, and made you feel like your privacy was being violated. I had only realized my mistake after the damage i dealt had been done. After that moment, my conscience slowly started eating away at me.
11/25/22 8:10Pm
I finally said sorry, though it was quite overdue, i finally mustered up enough courage to own up for what i have done. But for some reason, i didn't feel better, the guilt was still there.
That night, my chest was tight, and i was crying. it was the first time i cried for anyone in a while and also the very first time my chest felt tight, i didn't recognize the feeling but it seems, i just knew, i was heartbroken. I was heartbroken because despite the apology i gave it seemed that things will never be the same. Or so i thought.
11/26/22 9:36Am
The day after that, i had to go somewhere, so we really didn't get the chance to talk, just once in the morning. While i was walking around, i had much time to think, one of which was whether I'll cut ties with you or save what we have, I would have been the stupidest man on earth if i even thinked of leaving you and what we had. I was busy being too caught up in my emotions that i failed to see yours.
I decided to give you space, it was because my conscience was still eating away at my brain, one of the things that i had picked up from my past traumas, so I'm sorry if you got affected by it Philo.
I decided I'll make it up to you in the morning, but little did i know that you'd make it up to me yourself.
11/26/22 11:26Pm
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After you sent this message, we talked. The most meaningful and sincere talks that i had with a person thus far. I was made sure of once again, that you actually truly cared about me.
There was also one more thing that i was made sure of after we talked, and it was that i was actually truly inlove with you. I was fooling myself all this time prior to this moment because i promised that we were platonic. And i was scared of losing what we had. But regardless, i was sure i was madly inlove with you.
After that talk we had, things went back to normal, but not for long.
