After things went back to normal, my feelings for you grew stronger, and I've always said to you that it's bad to keep pent up feelings stored inside, but i was afraid of losing you.
11/27/22
9:51Pm
I confessed. I actually confessed to my supposedly "big sis" up until now. Currently, i really don't regret that i confessed, I'm happier than ever and i now have a wonderful gf that loves and supports me. But back then i was filled with mixed emotions. I was really scared of losing our friendship and just losing you in general.
"sabi mo pang clear na pero eto ako, I'm inlove with you okay. It started when you said you genuinely cared abt me then it started to develop. i tried fooling myself that it was platonic but i was wrong, i love you but i don't really have the guts to tell you."
These are the exact words i said that night, i wasn't even quite sure if you were okay with it. But to my surprise, you were. I was ecstatic to find out that you weren't leaving me, but i also thought what if I'll go forwards even more.
and so i did.
I decided I'll court you even though I thought i had little to no chance of making you mine, but still, I tried. Little did i know I'd get my answer quite sooner than anticipated.
