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Chapter 3: The Talk

Ranboo POV
I woke up on my bed and sat up, that was the best sleep I've had for a while. Suddenly all the memories from a few hours ago came crashing down on me and I looked at my arm. It was all bandaged up, properly bandaged up aswell. I wonder who wrapped up my arm? My breathing goes shaky as I walk to the door, I'm just going to open it to see if anyone is downstairs of if anyone is talking.

As I open my door, the sounds of people talking fill my ears. I listen in on their conversation and it sounds normal for the most part, I don't hear anything about me until I hear the front door fly open. I could hear someone breathing heavily like they had just ran a marathon. I didn't know who it was until I heard Dream speak.

Dream: "Where is Ranboo?"

Billzo: "They are up in their room, me and Wilbur carried him up."

Wilbur: "They are asleep though, I think. It's been a few hours so they are probably just sat in bed. Go check on them if you would like."

Dream: "Ok, thanks."

I hear Dream walk towards the stairs and hop up them like he wanted to be called the Easter Bunny. I quickly closed my door and got back in bed. I sat there as I heard a knock on my door and then saw it open slightly so some sound could be let through.

Dream: "Can I come in?"

Not going to lie a pit was growing rapidly in my stomach making me feel more sick by the second.

What if he kicked me out of the house?

What if they all hated me now?

Ranboo: "Yeah, sure..."

I saw as dream walked in, he looked really upset. His eye brows were turned upwards and his eyes slightly wider than usual. He sat down on the bed with me and lifted up a shopping bag I didn't realise was in his hand before.

Dream: "I wanted to have a talk with you and so I asked Tubbo what your favourite sweet treat was and I got you it so you would be slightly more comfortable during this conversation."

He handed me a bag of m&m's, it wasn't any regular bag, it was a massive bag.

Ranboo: "Oh um.. thanks that was really nice of you."

I felt really nervous so I didn't realise I had been messing with my bandage. Dream took my hand away from my arm and then began to talk.

Dream: "If you want me to leave at any point during this conversation and don't want to talk anymore then I will do so because this is your house aswell as mine and everyone else's. Anyway onto what I wanted to talk to you about, I want to ask you a few questions so could you please answer them honestly?"

Ranboo: "I will try but it honestly depends what they are."

Dream: "Honestly, fair enough. First question. How long have you felt the need to do that?"

Ranboo: "I don't know, maybe since about the age of 14 and I'm 19 now so I guess 5 years?"

Dream: "Right. Second question. How long since you last did this to yourself?"

Ranboo: "Last winter, my mental health gets worse in the winter and so I guess I was expecting this to happen."

Dream: "Third question. Have you been diagnosed, if so what did you get diagnosed with? That one's a bit personal so I completely understand if you don't want to answer."

Ranboo: "No it's fine, you were all going to find out at some point, one way or another. And yes, I have been diagnosed. I was diagnosed with social anxiety, depression and facial dysmorphia."

Dream: "You know you can talk to any of us if you need to you know. Even if you are feeling slightly down then come and tell one of us, none of us would mind. I just want you to be ok because I care for you a lot and I want you to be happy in life. You are funny and so successful. I'm also 100% sure your fans would go crazy if they saw you upset. If you so much as act slightly more down than usual on a stream, all hell breaks loose in the chat."

This made me chuckle a little bit because it's true. Sometimes chat really cheered me up EXCEPT for when I got that hair cut. I got so many messages calling me Justin Bieber but it still made me laugh and it continues to make me laugh to this day.

No matter how much I could tell Dream meant every word, part of me didn't believe him, and that part of me grew bigger and bigger by the second. I didn't notice I had been eating the m&ms the entire time.

Dream: "Come down when you are ready, I will ask the rest to not mention anything about earlier until you give me or anyone the heads up."

I gave him a quick smile and he left my room. I don't know how long it was until I came downstairs but it was a while because it was already dark outside. Niki, Wilbur and Tommy were making food and it smelt amazing.

Tommy: "RANBOO!! How are you feeling king of kings?"

Ranboo: "Better. Food smells lovely by the way, curry I'm guessing?"

Tommy: "Why yes, it is my favourite curry so I hope you guys like it because when ever I want it I WILL make it and you guys WILL eat it."

I smiled and moved my arm, completely forgetting about how much that hurts.

Ranboo: "Ow! Jesus Christ that hurt"

Tommy: "You okay King? You want to go sit down at the table with everyone else and I will bring your food in for you?"

Ranboo: "Yeah I'm fine. And thank you but I would like to stay in here and talk with you guys. If I walk in there now I will get an absolute ton of weird stares."

Wilbur: "Sorry for disrupting but how much Naan bread do you want? We have A LOT so choose as much as you would like."

Ranboo: "Uh I will just have 1 because if there is spare I will just come and get another."

Wilbur nodded and got back to doing the naan bread. Tommy was working on the actual chicken with the sauce and then Niki was working on the rice. I meant one the Island in the middle of the kitchen to stay out of their way. I was really dreading going into the dining room because I was scared someone will have forgotten to not say anything and I hope that the conversation will be interesting so I don't zone out and get stuck in my thoughts.

They started plating up the food and Tommy passed me mine so I could go sit at the table. Everyone else had come into the kitchen to collect their food.

Everyone sat down with their food and I finally felt at home, I was sat at a table with all of my friends. All of us were smiling and laughing but sadly I knew this would only be temporary because soon my mind would get the best of me and I wouldn't feel happy anymore.

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Sorry for any spelling or grammar mistakes. I was really tired while writing this as I have school tomorrow.

Date: 08/12/2022
Time: 22:49
Words: 1269