Shattered Halo- The Fallen Saga

Shattered Halo-1

Chapter 1

Tears cascaded over my angular face like a salty, emotional waterfall, exposing my despair to the world. I felt my eyes begin to burn as they flowed, showing no sign of stopping. My knees buckled beneath me, landing me hard on the mahogany flooring. Part of me searched for the reason that my feelings were amplified to this point, to the point at which I felt ready to collapse mentally, emotionally, and even physically.

I had always known this would happen, that I would be torn away from the life I had become accustomed to, the life I had loved, so why was I affected so? Guardians were supposed to be strong, to be able withstand the strain at our heart strings that came with their responsibilities. That was how we were born and raised. I had never had this problem with any of my past Watched, so why now?

I already knew the answer to that. I laughed humourlessly through my tears, the hollow, bitter sound echoing around the gable room which I had come to love so. I shook my head as more tears broke free. The creamy peach walls adorned with all these memories, the ones of love, they did not deserve to hear this pain of mine. They had been witness to love, and happiness, not hatred and sadness. The thought just made the crying worse.

Now, they were making me return, after all these years, return to the kingdom, and assign me a new Watched. Make me live a new life, as a new person. It was an impossible ask. But there was no way to defy Gabriel's orders, he got them right from the top. I had to do it. I had to be strong. But it was so hard. I had been watching over Brendan for so long, it was tearing me apart to do this.

Under the false name of Serenity Clark, I had moved into the house neighbouring his, just after his mother passed away. I helped him through it all, with gifts of clarity, hope, and occasionally even clairvoyance. I had watched the boy grow through it for eight long years, and now, I had to leave. Brendan had found love, and purpose. He was happy, so why wasn't I?

I gave a final whimper, cutting myself off before my depression took permanent residence. I rubbed my red-rimmed eyes with the back of my pale hand, shutting them to seal the rest of the tears threatening to overflow. Taking a deep breath, I opened my eyes to have one last, clear view of the room that had been my home for the past eight years.

I took in every detail, every chip in the plaster, every image on thhe walls. From the white wooden window frame that glowed as the sun rose, to the cosy little closet that had housed all my paraphernalia throughout my time here. Smiling sadly, I ushered the last of my belongings out of the room, down the majestic ivory-white hall, through the quaint country kitchen and out the worn doorway. I placed my wide assortment of things into a large, smokey truck headed directly to the local orphanage.

It backed up out of the driveway, back down the bumpy gravel road, and around the corner, leaving my vision forever. Seeing all my wordly possesions carted off nearly brought a fresh batch of tears to my eyes, but I held strong. I wasn't going to let this happen again. I was't going to let myself bond with my Watched. I was a Guardian Angel, after all. I'm supposed to be indifferent, unfeeling.

My job is to help them get through the bad times, on their own. We are not a pair of crutches, used to support them and keep them upright. They are not meant to depend on us. We are togive them SMALL help, small virues, to help them last. I had messed up, I had done it wrong, but I wasn't going to do it again. Next time, I would do it right. I swear, that I will never let myself feel love again. It's beter for my Watched, myself, and everyone else. Nothing good can come of it, so it just won't be allowed to happen.

Twisting my lips into a firm, determined line, I walked purposely around the back of the house, into the well-kept garden. The elabourate arrangement of greenery had flourished under my care. I could only hope it continued to do so in my absence, so that this town could be left with just a small reminder that there is beauty in the world.

I gave a small, sad smile, and quickly scanned the perimeter for curious eyes. Angels were hidden from the mortal world for a good reason. I didn't plan on exposing us, so naturally, I had to be careful about this. Taking one last, fleeting glance at my old home, I took a run. Leaping gracefully into the air, my powerful wings sliced effortlessly through the flimsy white material of my dress, and lifted me up into the azure sky. 

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As I soared through the dusty-orange sky, I had time to think about the good things about returning to Heaven. The unbridled joy that walked hand-in-hand with flight left no room for sad thoughts. Focus on the positives, I thought to myself. Positives... I would see Ivy and Peter again, that would be good. I would see the Gates and the River again, and most importantly, I would get a fresh start, I would get  to go on my new mission, with my new mindframe, and make up for my mistakes. That would be the best reward of all.

 I cut through the cool air, the wind resistance buffeting my body, trying and failing to slow me down. I was so refreshing, so relaxing to fly, and I hadn't been able to do it in so long, since being a Guardian meant keeping the secret. Rising higher into the sky, I slipped into the cloud cover, away from prying eyes, feeling truly safe for the first time in a while. The Kingdom was just up ahead, I could see slivers of it's golden glory hidden amongst the peach-coloured pillows of the clouds in the sunset.

Yes, Heaven is in the clouds. They used some kind of spell to make the cloud more solid, so we wouldn't fall, but I can't remember it. I never really paid attention throughout my education, accept to the things that interested me. But anyway, Heaven was perced upon te goldne clouds that followed the sunset. As gorgeous and poetic as it looks and sounds, I can't help but find it... obvious. There are so many other, more secretive places, that are just as breath-taking, but no, they had to stick it in the sky. It wouldn't be long before someone flys a plane right into the side of our cloud. Still, as I approached my home, I couldn't help but smile. It was good to be back.

Swooping down, I landed deftly on the misty peach-coloured platform and retracted my wings. I wandered absent-mindedly through the clouds for a moment, just trying to wrap my head around being back. It had been so long, I just don't know what I was meant to do. I was still on the outskirts, anyway, not really in the main area. The rest of the angels would all be inside the Gates, and I was really tired. Yawning, I curled up into a small ball of limbs, and shut my eyes. Crying really wears you out, and a nap never hurt anyone. I felt my conciousness start to slip away, and I entered the land of dreams.

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Tis is NOT my secret project, just so you know. My secret project will be coming in May. Yes, I ae established a date. MAY 2011, my super-awesome-really-amazing project will be revealed. Anyway, this is a story that, well, I literally dreamt up. I hope you enjoy it! It's going to be a trilogy. I'm sorry that the first capter was so tiny, but when wattpad died, I lost most of my work, and I couldn't be bothered to rewrite it all, so I rewrote half, Lazy? Possibly. Fast? Definitely.

Hope you enjoy! Leina Loves You!